In the alphas clutch

Numb

I laid on the floor unmoving. I just stared blankly at my wall. Dried up tear stains made my skin look even dirtier then it already was. Raina was silent. I could barely feel her in the back of my mind. We haven't moved or spoken since he touched us. After he was done with me he dragged me back to my room and threw me on the floor where I've been for hours now. I think it may be morning by now since there's some dim light shining in from my curtains on the wall I'm facing.

If it was just some ordinary beating I would've been up by now, back to my normal routine. But this was not like those days. I was no longer the same. I'm dirty now. I've been stained and mangled. My virtue is gone and that makes me unfit for my mate. I'm unclean.  My mates the only reason I fought through this but I'm no longer fit for him. I thought maybe he could deal with a mate whose been abused but now I've got nothing left for him. Who wants a mate who's been used by her own brother, a mate who will probably be seen as a slut. I'm not good enough for anyone now. I'll be a burden if anything.

It's my fault this happened. If I would've just gone to my room like he told me, if I hadn't stopped on the stairs, if I hadn't looked at Alfa...

Alfa.

Even he wouldn't look at me the same anymore. He would be disgusted and filled with hate. The same face Darren made as he threw me to the ground.  Just thinking if him making that face towards me causes tears to fill my eyes once again even though I though I was all out.  My heart felt like it had been stabbed.

Even Alfa wouldn't want me. He didn't come back. He didn't save me.

Finally I stood up with a vacant expression on my face. I felt nothing now. I'm numb. I have nothing left.

Slowly I walked over to my window and slid it open. I stared at the tree where I tried to escape many times before only to be grabbed back and beaten senseless. There's no point in trying anymore. I'm chained now so I can't go very far no matter how long it is and he already took everything from me. I had nothing left.

Slowly I stepped onto the window sill grabbing onto both sides of it with my hands. Then I took another step up so I was standing in it firmly. My legs are still weak though so my body wobbled a bit, each bit of wind sending a child onto my legs.

" Princess." I heard a beautiful voice say almost like a gasp.

I moved my head to look down, still completely expressionless as I stared at Alfa who looked up at me. His face filled with worry. An expression I haven't seen in a long time.

"Look at me. What are you doing?" He asked. He quickly whispered to one of the men behind him. "Go up stairs and grab that son of a bîtch."

"My brother." I whispered. "He loves me. He loves me so he took everything so no one else could."

"No sweetheart. Don't do this okay? He didn't take everything. I'm still here. I'm not gonna let him hurt you anymore." He called up to me.

"He loves me so much. He gave me the name of a pretty flower, mommy's favorite. She really did like lilies so much."

"He calls you Lilly? My names Alec. Can you tell me your real name?"

"Genesis." I whispered.

"Genesis." He spoke. The sound of my name rolling off of his lips sounded beautiful but I wasn't.

"Alec." I replied. He closed his eyes for a second before smiling up at me. It wasn't a smirk like the monsters, but a true smile that made me want to smile back but I can't. "Alec, he loves me so much that he took my innocence."

Just then a gust of wind hit my back and with the ghost of a smile I began to fall.  Somewhere along the fall I fainted either that or I died from it . I'm just glad I got to see Alec smile at me before I left.

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I woke up to the sound of a constant beeping that went off every second. Before I opened my eyes I could already tell where I was was terribly bright. I just hope it's heaven.

Then I felt it. The amazing touch that caressed my forehead and held my hand.

God?

Checking to see for myself, I carefully opened my eyes to peer at him. The bright lights pierced my eyes and I shut them again quickly. Finally adjusting to it I slowly reopened them and looked in the direction of touch. It definitely wasn't the god but was a god.  My eyes glanced over his gorgeous form that sat in front of me. His muscles seemed to bulge with every breath he took through his tight black v-neck t-shirt. His jaw was perfectly chiseled and his nose, imperfectly perfect. His print lips seemed to grow a playful smile the longer I stared and finally my eyes found their way too his beautiful blue ones that were staring right back into mine.

"Good morning beautiful." He whispered. "I've been waiting to look back into these beautiful eyes of yours."

I could feel a bright crimson radiating my cheeks as the butterflies began to go off in my stomach. I quickly tore my gaze from his to hide my face and instead stared at my hand that seemed to fit perfectly into mine until I noticed the IV stuck in my arm. I quickly followed the cord but then became distracted by the others that linked to patches that were stuck on my chest. Both cords were hooked up to different machines.

"What happened?" My voice was rasping and felt awful when I spoke.

"Here." He handed me a cup of water.

Just as I took a slip everything that happened came crashing down on me and I dropped the cup causing it to spill onto the blankets all over me.

"Let me get tha-"

"NO!" I quickly cut him off. I drew myself to the farthest part of the bed away from him and out of his touch. "Please don't touch me."

"I'm not gonna hurt you Genesis. I just wanna-"

"NO! Please don't hurt me! Don't touch me!" I screamed and cried trying to get away as fast as possible but the needle and patches were stopping me and hurting as I thrashed around.

Swiftly, a doctor ran in with a lady following behind but she stopped at the door placing her hands over her mouth as she stared at the scene in front of her.

"DONT TOUCH ME! Please!! Don't hurt me!!" I screamed as the doctor came towards me. He quickly stabbed my arm with a syringe and right as the black dots began to fill my vision I whispered. "Mommy, please save me."

Then everything went black.

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Thanks so much for reading!! What'd you think of the first three chapters? It gets better I promise! .....or at least I hope it does... aaaannyyyywayss  I know the first few chapters have been depressing but it's going to get happier and hopefully a bit funny . Well I'll try anyways tgat so much I love you so much! Comment and vote if you would pleeeeeaaaasse! At least that's what other books I've read say......   peace out boy/ Girl Scouts!