Wash Me Away O' Bittersweet Waves

15/5/14-23:36

I've tried but nothing will suffice;

I'm cold and I'm dead inside,

I can perchance escape the emptiness but I know not if I'll be struck with suffering,

It's becoming evermore tedious to risk and wait and yes it is selfish and cruel but what choice is there but to accept my fate?

So I ask this and only this of you; please drown me tonight? --eradicate my sorrow, before my emptiness captures me and drowns me tomorrow.

Bathe my naked, vulnerable body in calm, suffocating waters,

Watch me toss and writhe and listen to my cries; cries not of agony but of relief,

I desire to be taken by the sea's fantastical tides,

Where I will fall fast asleep to her angelic lullabies.

No longer will I be a battered shell grudgingly dragging myself across the Earth; but a peaceful corpse rising and falling with the tides as if I still had breath,

No longer will the claws of solitude grip me and keep me in it's piercing embrace;

I will emancipate myself from life's unbearable chains and freely float in death's inviting company,

The heavenly sea will wash me clean of scars and forever cherish me,

And her sweet, sweet waves will lap around me gently and whisper promises of eternity.