You never did understand that the lies you kept were
Falling off at the ends of your smile
Like the frayed ends of the loose hearts we carved together on top of
crying mermaids married to the ships
we doused in kerosene so beautiful and transparent,
it set the sea a new color of dark rainbows that we just couldn't catch
You never did understand,
That the light hiding in your pocket would scream at me all night
like a bird of the moon strung out on daylight so intense it broke the glass eyes of the psychic next door
and clipped the wings of my soul
And God only knows that you never cared to fix it ;
Not with your dirty shoelaces that dripped with the poison of sad rats
that turned into night flowers so beautiful
I just ignored the pain of being ripped open and took the light from your pocket to lick
before it disappeared back into your eyes with a smirk
You never did understand,
That you can't hide all your secrets from me;
like the way the copper in your hair was only tiny pennies you stole for thoughts
when you dreamed I wasn't looking.
Or how your smile is so dark when you pretend you aren't angry with the world for not giving a damn,
and that the saliva stains stuck on the specks of candlelight in your eyes
doesn't bother you when it runs down your cheeks
like the tears we stole from the children hiding in the alley ways,
stirring up trouble with markers and magic you spew from your dirty mouth and flick around with your tongue
like the half snake half alligator you say isn't real.
You never did understand,
That sometimes I wish the forever you sold me didn't
tie our wrists together in a way that God didn't intend.
I wish that sly smile of yours didn't wake me with a whisper of chocolate veils of mourning
for all the sadistic little mermaids we destroyed
when the Captains took a lunch break with Hell and all the pretty girls who stay there.
I wish that the piercings in your lips didn't sing my name when you toss and turned every day
when the covers get too tight and the night flowers turned back
into the rats that melt like the sweat we keep
in painted jars with mini sunsets sitting in them like fairies
waiting for their light switch to give out.
Sometimes I wish you had never found me and that
I didn't sit around waiting for you to come again
when the dreams just aren't enough and I can't wait for you to work your magic
and keep me forever
where the pretty little flowers are really rats and
lip rings talk more than we ever did.
You never did understand,
That forever was the word you cant just had out to every girl who asks
And love was only a sarcastic word that was a tattoo on our wrists
That kept the night streets full of children waiting on us to turn them into pumpkins
Bound together like God's of heartache
waiting for the sun to shake off my saliva and climb out of your imaginary pocket.
