Don't Be Mad At Me

DON'T BE MAD AT ME ~EDITED

The trailer

Introduction:

"Please... Don't be mad at me."

That was all I heard her say before she left. Those were the last few words that left her lips before my whole world came crashing down on me. 

I lost HER; I lost the only person who made me believe in myself. I lost HER! I lost her FOREVER! I couldn't take her back now. 

I lost everything that day. I lost the bet, I lost the friends, I lost the popularity, and most of all I lost HER. And nothing would never be the same again. Not after she left. And I will never know why she did leave. 

After that day, I worked so hard on getting my grades up. I knew she would've been happy if I focused on school, even though SHE couldn't see me. I did everything she wanted me to do even before everything that had happened. 

I ignored all the insults and comments people threw at me. 

Now it's been a year since that day, and I'm a senior in the advanced class. SHE was right; I can be here if I just worked hard enough. But now all I want is to see HER again, SHE was and is everything I need.m Even after all this time, I still want HER back.

I was an idiot for doing those things; smoking, drinking, racing, and the worst was letting her go.

I'm feel more alone than before. I wish I could just see HER, even just for a second. I just miss her so much.

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"Please... Don't be mad at me."

And with that said, I left. I left HIM. I had to. I needed to leave. I love HIM, really I do, but someone needs me more than I needed HIM. 

I lost my inspiration, I lost all the friends I made, and I lost HIM, my world. My life was never the same after that. 

I couldn't express the pain I had in me, no one could make me smile like he did, no one can make me laugh like he did, and no one could replace him, never ever. I can't believe I let HIM go. That was the only thing I had regretted, I left him without a goodbye, or a hug, or a kiss, or piece of advice, or anything. I just disappeared in thin air.

I am the worst girl he has ever dated or whatever you call our relationship or if you can even call it a relationship.

I was so scared, I was so weak, I was so inconsiderate, I was so insecure, and I was so stupid.

Now, It's time to face HIM after so many months apart. I have to admit that I have missed him so much and I can't continue to go on living like I'm okay but I'm not fine at all.