forbidden love

"hyung?" i mumbled tugging at his shirt. he didnt look at me he just kept looking forward. jonghyun sat behind me and tapped me on the shoulder. he whispered in my ear "whats wrong with onew" i shrugged my shoulders. he sighed and sat back in his chair. i tugged at onews shirt and he finally looked at me. his eyes showed saddness yet his expression was blank. a tear ran down my face "im sorry hyung" i mumbled. i looked down at my hand that was holding his shirt and i let go.

i felt so terrible. onew hyung was working so much harder than us yet no one was noticing. the fans may rank us in looks and put onew at the bottom but in the amount of work put in he ranks higher than us. the more i thought about it the more my tears grew heavier.

a hand gently ruffled my hair and i looked up his eyes were warm and he gently patted my hair. "hey dont cry okay?" he said warmly. i nodded and wiped away my tears. "anyway i should be crying" he laughed. "ya! why are you making my taeminnie cry !" key said slapping onew shoulder. i laughed and so did the others.

jonghyun hugged me from behind the chair and key slapped him.

onews p.o.v

hes so happy being himself and yet he crys alot when he thinks no one is around. how many times have i seen him cry in the dance studio by himself. everytime i see him i just want to hug him and tell him i care but i always end up getting upset myself.

finding out he got second best fan vote for best member of shinee i was so happy but my heart ached that he was hurt. i know how hard he works for his looks and he doesnt realise that he makes girls hearts melt just with one look. im so jealous of him. i know fans dont like me and i know im not anyones favourite but i just want him to care.

when he grabbed my shirt my heart skipped a beat and i didnt know what to do but when he cried my heart felt like it was going to shatter into pieces. telling him im okay and that he shouldnt cry are normal yet in my mind i wanted more i wanted to hug him and tell him why i was upset but i knew he would stop talking to me. i was affraid. i knew jonghyun had a massive crush on taemin and i didnt want to get in the way. 

authors notes

hi sorry this is so short I felt like the first chapter shouldn't be very long. If you have any comments feel free to complain or ask anything ^-^