Stepping Out Of The Shadows

Chapter 1

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Chapter 1

Alila's POV

I watched in agony for the umpteenth time, as my mate kissed another woman, the fingers of one hand her threading themselves through his short, dirty blonde hair, while the other traced the outline of his perfctly sculpted abs, over his tight, black t-shirt. He wrapped his arms around her waist... I looked away. Each time it happened, whether I was watching or not, it was like a punch in the face. I felt my heart break over and over again. I will not cry. I will not cry; I repeated to myself. But even as I said it, I felt the control over my emotions, slipping. I turned around in disgust, and picked up my pace, in my haste to get away from this heart wrenching sight, walking in the opposite direction than I had been walking initially. My wolf had other plans, she wanted me to turn around and pull her off of him, and punch her square in the face, but I fought to keep her in check.

I headed for my hiding place, to calm down. It was instinctive, almost routine. I sat there, under the bleachers, and sobbed my heart into my hands, till my eyes had no more tears to cry. At this point, I would always tell myself, this is the last time I'm gonna cry over Rob Mapleheart. Never went to plan, because I'd do it all over again the next day, and the next, and the next. I'm so pathetic. If he were to find out I was his mate; which was bound to happen sooner or later, though I was sincerely opting for the latter. I mean, I find it hard to cope with him being away from me and to know he is with someone else... it hurts. I'd love to tell him we're mates, so he could be with me; but he was surely going to reject me, no one in their right mind would pick me as a girlfriend, never mind a mate; especially the coolest guy in school. The one that goes for the gorgeous supermodels, and succeeds in getting them. The one everyone thas a crush on. He obviously won't choose me over them. Me, just an ordinary girl, with ordinary long brown hair. Nothing even remotely special.

I shoved my books into my bag, before grabbing a clean tissue to blow my nose and dry my tears.

I'm a geek. A total loser. Not that anyone would notice. I'm invisible. Nobody can see me. Nobody wants to. Sometimes, I notice people ignore me on purpose. They don't just not notice me; they go out of their way to not see me. It's really hurtfull, and I just don't get it. Well I'm fed up, but I guess it's my own fault, sometimes. I'm too shy to speak up and answer a question in class, as much as I am to talk to anyone else. It's my fault I'm invisible. It's my fault Rob hasn't noticed me. It's going to be my fault, when my mate rejects me. We're too different. He's outgoing, and loves parties. I hate parties, and I keep to myself. He's a future alpha, and I'm just the bloody runt of the pack, and considering the school is all werewolf, the school aswell.

"Stupid. Stupid. Stupid." I grumbled to myself, hitting my forehead with the palm of my hand. I'm too chicken to make myself known to him. 'High school, the best years of your life,' my mother had told me. What a sick joke. I leaned back against the bleachers, and was about to start crying again, when a head popped into my view. My tears stopped in their tracks; shock being the new expression my face wore.

"You better not be talking about me, missy!" Oh, it was just Jack, my best bud. The smile he had greeted me with, instantly turned sour. I saw his eyes roaming my face, taking in my puffy eyes, red cheeks, and the ball of tissues I held between my clenched fists. He slumped to the floor, pulled me onto his lap and held me in a comforting embrace; understanding and sympathy clouding his face. The waterfall that was my tears, soaked into his shoulder, staining his shirt, though he didn't seem to care.