heaven.

i'm so sorry [only part]

dear mom and dad;

I'm living in a lie, I'm broke, I swear I really really try, but I can't carry whith this anymore.

I fell in love five years ago and is the most beautiful person in the world, but what I am feeling is wrong or that's what you tell me. I'm sick and  there's no cure, God doesn't love me, I just deserve death, rigth?

I'm trying to keep faith, faith in someone who doesn't love just for who I am, for who I love.

The fault is killing me because my heart is mistaken, because I love a boy when I supposed to have a girlfriend. I wish I could stop, I really do, but I when I'm with him it feels right.

Mom, dad I kiss a boy; mom, dad I love a boy; mom, dad, I'm gay; mom, dad, I don't deserve heaven.

Please tell me: how I get to heaven without losing a part of me? And I know the answer, I know that is impossible. So if I'm losing a piece of me, maybe I don't want heaven, beause I don't deserve it.

 I love you so much, thank you for all you did for me, it's to late now, I hope you still love me after this, even you can't say me that anymore.  

―Harry.