Falling Means Breaking: An Adam Levine FanFic

Chapter 5

I didn't know what to do, so I just stood there for a few moments, looking at Adam. It wasn't in a weird way either, Adam has this way about him that just captivates your attention. I'm not good with words anyway. Finally, I returned to the world enough to gather my wits and sit down next to him. He didn't even say anything, he just leaned his head into my shoulder and cried.

"Adam?" I asked softly, but he never lifted his head or made a noise to acknowledge me. "Addy?" My voice cracked as I felt his chest heave with his sobs. I didn't know what to say or do. I wasn't sure how to deal with people crying. So I did what always made me feel better: I started singing softly.

I guess this time you're really leaving

I heard your suitcase say goodbye

Well as my broken heart lies bleeding

you say true love is suicide

You say you've cried a thousand rivers

And now you're swimming for the shore

You left me drowning in my tears

And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

I'd steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what love can do

I'll be there for you

My heart hit my throat when Adam joined in. His voice cracking as he wiped the tears from his eyes.

 I know you know we've had some good times

Now they have their own hiding place

Well I can promise you tomorrow

But I can't buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty

But I wanted to be your valentine

I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby

When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you

 And I wasn't there when you were happy

I wasn't there when you were down

I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby

I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you

I wrapped my arms around him when we were done. His smile had returned, but his eyes were still sad.

"Are you okay?" I asked, my own voice shaking with Adam so close. Our faces were inches from each other and I was trying as hard as I could to push all thoughts of kissing him as far from my mind as they would go.

"No. No I'm not. Victoria lied to you. We never got back together and she kissed me forcefully the other night. I really hoped that you hadn't seen that, but I guess you did. I don't want her anymore. And she never really wanted me in the first place. I feel so stupid. How could I have tried to hide that from you?" Adam never cried. Not in front of anybody. So I understood what it had taken for him to cry on my shoulder just then.

"Adam. Please. I overacted, It's not my job to dictate who you can and can't date. I shouldn't have yelled at you earlier. And I'm sorry about you and Victoria, I know-" I had to push back my own tears at seeing him so broken up and angry with himself, "I know how you felt about her."

"Yes," he said, a small smile returning, "felt as in past tense. We didn't get along the way we used to. She was too controlling. She wanted-we wanted different things." I desperately wanted to ask exactly what it was that little miss Victoria wanted that she couldn't have, but I didn't.

"I am sorry." I shook my head. "And now at least if you ever embarrass me, I can tell all the guys in music that you cried in Dryvit Park." His laugh lifted the mood of the whole park. And I had to admit, my smile was a little brighter now that I knew that he and Victoria were definitely over. he shoved my shoulder gently. 

"And if you ever did that, I'd tell Mr. Carter that to cheer me up you sang a wonderful rendition of Bon Jovi's I'll Be There For You and that he should give you the solo in next year's musical." Now it was my turn to shove his shoulder. Adam knew that my greatest fear was having to get up in front of everybody alone and sing. I wasn't as confident in myself as he was and it was harder for me to just put my music or my voice out there for people to judge. 

So we sat there, just us two for a while in comfortable silence and looked at the stars. The nights in L.A. were mostly clear and extraordniarly beautiful. Finally, Adam dragged me from the bench and started spinning me around the park. In our little park there were two actual swings and a tire swing. Adam lifted me off the ground and put me in the tire swing. Then he started pushing the swing so I was flying around the brisk March night and giggling. 

When Adam was sore and sweaty from swinging me, I climbed out of the little tire swing and we started the short walk home. I brushed his dark hair, soggy but shaggy, out of his eyes. He smiled back at me and I was so glad that the tears had left his eyes. 

"You do realize that you still have to do the talent night with me, right?" I smiled at him as we rounded the corner to my house. 

"But of course. I couldn't reject the chance to sing with my favorite girl." I blushed hard and looked away. He laughed his little laugh and kissed my nose gently. "Goodnight Beka, I'll see you at school tomorrow." 

They were halfway through the Night Shift when I had showered and changed and I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.