I'd give anything just to get a text message from you.. your probably sleeping right now.. and that's okay.. just.. know you still haven't left my mind.. ur kinda stuck there... sorry...
I feel really helpless without you.. im sorry if I'm bugging you at all...
This is really hard.. I need to get a new hobbie to occupy myself.. like I hate how lost I am without you being here all the time.. I love you.. I need you back soon.. real soon...
You don't understand..
and... I wanna say sorry for missing our 8 month anniversary... I wanted so badly to let you know that I remembered.. but the time was just so bad... I'll do better on our 9 month I promise...
I love you so much Patrick. Believe me. I really.. really do.. your the light of my life and you give me my worth.. I'm nothing if your not there... you make me the person I can be proud of being.. I'm so lucky I have you.. your my better half and the only person my heart will ever love.. you broke down my walls and created your own around the both of us.. your my weakness.. your the only thing that could ever hurt me at this point.. I've given everything I have into loving you.. I've been here through all our hardships.. and I'm going to stay here.. I'm sorry if I breakdown into episodes that can upset you or make you doubt me.. I'm just not as strong as I wish I was... I'm a coward.. I'd rather hide then face something that scares me.. but.. I promise I'd do anything in my power to protect you.. from anything.. I love you so much... and I need you more than you could ever imagine.. thank you for staying with me however difficult I may be.. hopefully I hear from you soon.. sweet dreams.. and again.. I love you..
