Hard, not to show...

I stand there helpless...

Trying hard not to show the holes i have in my heart.

I stand there...

With a smile of hope,

Not because i have any,

But because i want to fool people ive never been hurt.

I show a beautiful smile,

But its nothing more than full of hurt,betrayal,and the memories i have of the people who said:

"i love u" (like anyone ever means it).

I look full of joy in front of everyone...

But,when im alone i look in the mirror...

Just to find my self navigating through my soul,

trying to find if under all the shattered bits of glass,

that keep finding a way to hurt me even after,my love, i can no longer bleed.

From close up all you can see is a happy,young girl with a bright future...

But if u get far away as possible

U can see,

how at the far distance im crying.

I stand there hopeless...

'Cuz i know nobody understands what im going through.

I dont care if they see me happy,

I only care if they see me cry.

They wont do anything about it except laugh at the very thought that im hurt

Why? I wonder

I finally reach an answer:

"Its because no one ever cared"...

They just want to hurt me even more.

Do any of them ever see my pain?

If they do, do they even care?

I guess not...

After my heart is tired of loving, they wonder why im so distant, so cold all the time..

Dont u think its cuz my heart needs a break,

from all the judging,

all the impertinent comments,

all the betrayal,

all the PAIN!!!

i stand there helpless,

As a target to others joy,

but im the only one aiming to my disappearance from this cold world...

were no one care about each other anymore.

I stand there...

Unnoticed by everyone

I used to love.