So.. today's been.. really bad.. and I think I'm just going to do this one letter today.. I'm kinda.. idk.. there's a lot going on in my head.. I'm sorry for the way I acted towards the end of the day.. I just I don't think you get how much talking to you actually means to me... that's something I need.. it's the only reason I get up everyday and go to school... and I've always hated when you were there and then when you left suddenly then you'd come back.. I mean you know this.. it's nothing new.. I get your tired but like.. if that's the case just please sleep... and as for my dream last night it just wasn't something that I really wanna y'all about because it's an old topic and it'll only upset you.. thank you for not asking me to tell you a lot though.. I appreciate it..
But back to why I acted the way I did umm..
It's just harder for me I guess.. because I revolved everyday around messaging you and giving you my attention.. and it just got taken away and now I'm lost. I feel like I have no purpose and it sucks.. a lot.. I love you... I really do.. to much I feel... I wish I could back off a bit but I just.. it's not possible.. coping for me is different then you.. you have more freedom.. I'm confined and monitored... it's difficult... I can't occupy myself.. anyways.. I hope ur not to upset.. and.. I love you.. and I miss you.. a lot.. so yeah.. umm.. bye.. I guess..
