Love is Impatient, Love is Unkind

Dear you,

This is what I would say to you right now if I was brave enough.
I fucking miss you. I miss you more than I thought was humanly possible.
In the back of my head, I always knew that there would be a day when I would have to live without you.
But this isn't living.
I catch myself thinking about you all the damn time. I wonder what it would be like if you still loved me. And if I had been enough for you.
What was it that I didn't do for you?
How can I change to be good enough for you, to be better?
There's literally a hole in my heart where you once were. It'll always be there for you, and only you.
You know what you meant to me, and I know the things you've done. But that doesn't change the fact that I want you, nobody but you.
It drives me crazy that I made a huge mistake by not fighting for you when you left me.
That I just stood there and let you go.
I'm so sorry that I didn't fight.
I really wish I had, because maybe things would be different.
I love you always.
-Gabsviolet