The Love Experiement

See Me

I was on my way
...before you came
...before your promises
My soul glowed then
I'd finally found my happy
And I thought...
See
I thought you wanted to add to it

Make my dreams come true
Were the words dropping off your tounge like honeydew
I sucked and drank your sweetness
Allowing it to fill and me give in to my weakness
My need for love
My need for support
For a moment
It was whatever you needed
It was whatever you wanted

But it was never enough
I sacrificed my happiness
Cut it and bleed
You promised me a wedding and a safe place to lay my head
But tears stain my pillows and my sheets
No wedding of mine have I yet to see
Patience is your request
But time has filled each of my seconds with regret
Now your words are give up my hopes and dreams to
You scream they will never come true

When did love become hate
When did support turn into needing to break
I've grown silent in YOUR conversations
You don't even notice my gall
I've stopped wandering if you care at all

As my needs go unmet
And I awaken to your complaints and arguments
I grow more silent with a pile of regret
Remembering...
I was on my way somewhere before you came
I found my happy
And it was before I even knew you or your name
You seem to forget I was someone before you and I became
This...
This ball of ugliness you attempt to mold into nothing I would want or ask for
Yet you don't listen no more
You see not that I don't want this anymore