So this has nothing to do with the rest of what I'm gonna y'all about in this letter but like I love quotes and this one just.. idk it hit me in a soft spot.
"Most of us convince ourselves we wanna disappear, when in reality all we want is to be found."
Like ugghhh I fucking love that!!
Anyways I'll stop lol back on you topic!
I'm really happy how today turned out.. I feel better about everything and I feel like ur on a stable level with me.. and that's good cuz I haven't felt like that in a while.. I'm not to concerned if you write me a big letter or not today I kinda see this as me giving back to you.. so like yeeeeee... anywhoozle.
I'm really lucky I have you. Like.. really really lucky. You make everything easy.. like.. I never feel like I need to struggle when I'm talking with you and I never feel like your keeping things from me.. like I love being able to relax when I'm with you.. like you truly are my safe haven. Away from all the chaos of life I can just be with you and the water settles. I swear though that's just ur aroma. Like you as a person. That's just you. Hence why you make friends so easily lol people are drawn to you like magnets. You have that personality that just.. fits everyone's style.. your charming and charismatic, your funny, and your kind, and your selfless.. like.. babe those are golden traits. Lol I'm just lucky ur mine. Mine now. Mine forever. I don't really wanna see you with anyone else.. selfish as it may be.. I've told you before you make me selfish.. I just don't think I'd be mature enough to accept whoever you were with unless she was like... a god. Aside from that you'd never be dating in your league. Sorry honey bunches of oats. But yooouuuu deserve nothing but the best. Not even a tiny peach fuzz less! You are a king and such you should be treated and leveled with.
I'm trying to get on that same floor with you but damn.. someone keeps spilling oil on the stairs.. and I can't climb.. so.. just give me a little time.. lol.
But no point being. You are amazing. Your astonishing. Your magnificent. Your a king. And it's my duty to treat you as such in life.
Our love is one people will write novels about babe! All the hardships! All the trials! All the romance! I mean there will be no love quite like ours we've established this multiple times. Lol don't mean to BRAG!!! But, I HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND EVERRRRR. *cough cough* sorry.. I think I'm allergic to something.. YOUR PERFECTION. Ugh but no seriously tone it down, ur making me look bad.
Lol I love you Patrick and I hope on your terms we're okay because I just love you much you make everything easier by just being around me and idk what I'd do or who I'd be without you.. thank you for walking into my life and changing it for the better because there's no one else out there for me that I'd even consider wanting. Your it. It's you or nothing. You know like going to the casino. You win or you lose never both. I wanna be the winner who gets to take you home!
I gotta end it here.. my parents are active tonight. I love you. And I miss you. And I can't wait to talk again. I hope work ends or ended smoothly and I hope you have the sweetest of dreams. I love you Patrick. Good night. ❤️
