Today is a happy plus sad day. Happy cause I've got an excellent result. Also sad cause it's doesn't seem being appreciated. I don't know either it's just my feeling or it's reality. I don't know why I don't felt happy like my friends. Externally I looked happy, I also can give you a very nice smile but in my heart.. I don't feel what my face say. I know I'm nothing to people actually. All people are just fake. In front of me all like very happy with me but behind me, I don't feel their sincerity. The truth is I'm sick with my life. I feel like I'm playing a game which is I don't know the result cause I'm the game and people around me are the gamer. I'm not to think badly about others but that's a sense of my heart. I don't know when the game will be end but I hope it will be end as soon as possible. I'm just don't want to continue this. I hope one day someone will come to me to give me some happiness maybe or just 'delete' me cause it's better than give me sadness. Let me be happy on my own way please. I don't want to be people teddy bear anymore, be fooled all the time. Is there anyone want to be my hero? It's seem like a joke right? I know who am I to the people and the world. I'm nothing.Nothing.
This just a piece of my story. Please don't judge me. You don't know who am I. You only know what I had shared with you. I'm just a human that's still have a long journey waiting for me, but if I could I don't want to face this terrible journey. I'm writing here cause I feel like I must write it. Not to welcome readers just.. I don't know how to say it..hmm. Sorry if my grammar not right. Bye.
