Starting Over

Chapter 1-You Are Gone

**New Jinmin Story **

  Why are you not here with me? Why am I standing over your grave, placing a red rose on your coffin.  Why will I never hear your boistrious laugher as you bound into the kitchen and throw your arms around me.  Why must will I never feel your breathe on the back of my neck as you leave soft heated kisses while we are making love? Why did I send you out in the pouring rain that night for my favorite ice cream? You'd still be here!  You never would of got into that car accident.  My sweet Hoseokie.  My heart, my soul, my husband.   Jin fell to the muddy cold ground by Hoseok's casket and weeped.  He pounded his fists into the saturated dirt trying to make sense of this tragedy.  Why was his love taken from him? It should be him in that coffin, not is beautiful, brighty sunny Hoseok. 

  Strong arms enveloped him and tred to pull him upright but Jin brushed them away.  "No!  I won't leave him!  I can't leave my Hoseokie!!"  Jin wailed.  Everyone there that loved Hoseok could not hold back the tears.  Jungkook, yanked the frail Jin up and against his strong chest.  He wrapped Jin tightly in his arms.  "He's gone, hyung.  He's gone."  Jin fell back against the maknae's chest.  "Noooo!!  He's not.  I can't leave him alone here, it's sooo cold, Kook-ah.  He needs me.  My Hoseokie!!"  Jin turned in the maknae's arms and wepted harder.  Jungkook held tight to the older man.  Hoseok had been his everything.  He gave up his family fortune to be with Hoseok, he supported and championed Hoseok's dream's to be successful singer and dancer, Hoseok in turn supported Jin through culinary school and even financially backed him when he wanted to open his own restaurant.  It was Jin's dream.

  The day they got married the sun shone brightly, Hoseok stood before Jin with love in his eyes promising to be by his forever through good times and bad, for richer and poorer.  They made a vow in front of God and their friends and family on that day 3 years ago to be together forever.  Jin slipped the silver wedding band on Hoseok's left finger as did Hoseok.  They joined hands and kissed as their union was made official.  Hoseok grabbed Jin by his collar and planted a passionate kiss on the plump lip's of his new husband.  It was a wonderful and happy day.  It was suppose to be forever.

  Now as the pallbearers lowered Hoseok's coffin into the earth, Jin lost it.  He tried to throw his body into this cold ground with his love lost but Jungkook stopped him. (We are going for a traditional burial not Korean here.  They lived in the United States but after Hoseok's death his friend's bring him back to S.Korea) "You have to let go, hyung.  Hoseok-hyung wouldn't want you to be like this.  You have to be strong." The maknae spoke with a shakey voice and tears pouring down his face.

"He's alone alone here, Kook'ah" He turned in the maknae's arms and grabbed his arm's.  "He'll be so cold here.  He will hate me leaving him."  Jungkook placed his hand on the older's face and gently spoke: "Hyung, he's already gone.  He's will always be with you.  Right here."  Kookie takes Jin's hand and lies it over his heart.  You have the memories of you and him.  He will not be angry with you if you go back home to Seoul.   He's in your heart now and he will be there with you, forever."  Jin nodded and sniffed through the tears.   Jin straightened up walked over to the ground where Hoseok's final resting place now laid.  He left his single red rose, whispered to his love one last time.  The other's could not hear him.  Stood up, blew him a hand kiss.  "Goodbye my Hoseokie."

Meanwhile.....

  Park Jimin held tightly to Taetae, his longtime boyfriend and watched the whole cold funeral procession play out.  He watched as his old friend, Jin-hyung buried the love of his life and Jimin snuggled his little body closer into his Tae.  "Let's never part, Tae."  The pink haired mochi whispered into Tae's short cheasnut hair.  Tae turned to his love and squeezed his arm that was wrapped around him tightly. "Never, Chim chim.  Always you and me, my dearest.  Tae coughed uncontrollably.  It hurt his chest.  He had been to the doctor who said it was just a little cold however the cough had gotten worse.  Tae sought out more doctors and more tests without his sweet mochi knowing.  The results were not good. Tae had very little time left.  He was dying and his sweet Chimmie had no idea. 

  "Taetae, are you okay?" Jimin patted his back gently.  His brown eyes searched his with love and concern.  Tae looked at his little pink haired mochi, "yes, i'm fine, Chimmie.  Just the got something caught in my throat. I'm alright now."  Both turned back to watch Jin place the last red rose on Hoseok's final resting place.  Jimin couldn't help but let the tears fall.  His heart broke for Jin-hyun.  What would he do without Hoseok.  Jimin didn't want to think about what life would be like without his Taetae."  The funeral at last was over.  Jin didn't stay for the final condolences.  He wanted to get to home.  The older one leaned on Jungkook as they made their way out of the cemetry and headed back to Jin and Hoseok's home.

  Jimin grabbed Tae's hand and held it so tightly.  "I will never let you go, Taetae.  Never."  Tae coughed again.  Trying his best to hold back the tears as he knew that his death was immient and his parting from Chimmie would break his poor mochi.  Jimin just held on tightly to Tae and smiled through the tears as the rained started to pour down. 

  Maybe fate could bring these two broken hearts together?  Jin and Jimin would need each other maybe not now but some day and maybe just maybe they could find love.  In each other?

End of Chapter 1

*New story.  Give lots of love and support!!!  It's my first boyxboy story!  So kind of nervous here but proud of myserlf too!  To the Jinmin ship lovers, this is for you!! Cheers!!