Right now I'm kinda curled up on the bus and like... idk... I just really want you here.. so I can like snuggle up with you and just... lay there.. I want ur presence right now.. so like... fly out here. Please. Lol.. that'd actually be bad.. I wouldn't let you leave without taking me with you heh... so... don't fly out here but... get here. Soon. And never leave.. please.. the world feels grey without you... I need rainbows and unicorns in my life. Even.. if like.. all I wear is black... STILL I NEED THE COLOR. Lol..
I hope ur sleeping good and maybe that you'll be up and messaging me soonish.. cuz like... hello I need you. Now.
I'm sorry about my little outburst today I just.. it's like you said. I just didn't wanna take away something that I felt like you liked a lot... but I mean if you knew the story you'd understand a bit better.. and I think you'd see like clearly why that stuff bothers me so much.. but.. yeah.. thank you for not getting to upset with me over it.. I felt bad saying anything but like.. it really bugged me.. and I couldn't really bite my tongue any harder...
I'm really lucky your so patient with me... in reality that would've ended badly.. not because of the situation but like.. because of how I acted... I really.. really love you... and I'm sorry I'm so difficult... I'm not trying to make things hard on you I promise... it just kinda happens..
But thank you for pushing through all the waves I send at you and still loving me just as much as you had before... it means a lot and I really do see the struggles you go through by being with me.. I love you so so so much... and I hope the end of your day goes easier then the beginning. You deserve it. And please please remember that you never do anything wrong. That your amazing. And perfect. And there's no one out there quite like you Patrick. Your a king but your specifically my king. And never forget it. I love you more than anything else in the entire galaxy. And your mine to treasure forever even if sometimes I catch you on fire a bit...
I miss you. And I hope to hear from you soon. ❤️
