Dear L,
I didn't think about you for weeks, months even... until tonight. Tonight I had one of them weak moments; I looked back on old, old memories of me and you. Of how happy we was, but also how sad I was at times.
How you made me crazy, but also crazy in love. I've tried to move on.
Key word-'TRIED', and it was working. Then you crept back into my mind like you always do. I cry writing thing, because every time I think I'm moving on? I shut myself down and don't trust, don't even give them a chance to prove to me what me and them could me?
Why? Why is it like this, I don't want it to be. L, I have to admit now I miss you... I hate that you're with her. I don't hate her though, I hate you for so long after we spilt. I still do sometimes. Because id rather hate you then admit I love you, still even know; after everything you put me through. I still think about you 'L' I hope you still think about me, I wish it.
I just wish I could move on, but I have trust issues now. And seeing you so happy with her I try my hardest to have that! But I can't. I'm so fucked up now, I can't feel anything!! And it makes me so upset, and angry.
I just want to move on, to not want to see you again or for you to be with me, or dream about you you every other fucking night! Why, why did it have to end the way it did. I can't trust anymore, I always think you, the relationship we had, and how we broke up? I thought it made me stronger.. in a way it did.
I laugh more now, I'm happier more now. I don't cry as much, but I still care for you just a little and miss you? I don't feel the love I had for you with anyone else! And I hate that. I feel like I'll forever be alone now, I'll never love someone like I loved you 'L'.
I beg every time I think of you to GOD, to just stop it. Stop it all. Then I feel nothing,nothing towards potential relationships, I just give up on them. What's the point right? I mean I give you my everything, and not getting that in return?
It must of broken something so deep down inside me...
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I can't say these words to you, so I thought I'd just type them down to make myself better. It helped, a little.
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