Our Love

August 20 2013

Dear Karen,

So much has changed. Even just sense you've been away. We moved into this house, i'm in a new school and my little sister being gone for a year doesn't make it any easier. It doesn't feel real..., but im not gonna let it phase me. I used to tell you everything, and if I can't do it in person because you're off galavanting who knows where...I'll tell it to this journal..just like I was talking to you...

September 1 2013

Oh my god...you are so lucky you're not in highschool, even before we moved into this house.

So its the first day of school, and there I am introducing myself to the class and I say that I just moved into the house beside the train tracks. All of a sudden every kid in the room turns and just stares like I suddenly tramsformed into a mutant. I just stood there wishing pretty hard for a rewind button because now maybe no body knew my name but they all knew who I am..."the poor kid"...ugh great...

September 13 2013

You know that feeling where the first moment you see someone it's like they have a big gold star around them and you HAVE to get to know them...Well theres this guy. I think he's a seinor. He's usually dressed kind of punk,but sometimes I see him here in this space cadet outfit. He's always drawing in this notebook looking so intense... I had no idea how I would ever like have an excuse to talk to him till I noticed he and his friends hangout and play street fighter at the 7/11 everyday after school...

September 15 2013

When you live in one place your whole life your next door neighbor is kinda like your default friend and Tammy only got werider over the years. So moving away has been a good excuse to like NOT SEE HER ANYMORE...but she did always have those good okama gamesphere games...maybe i'll give her a call...

October 2 2013

So you know what they say about "the best laid plans of mice and men?" Yeah turns out it applies to street fighter, to..atleast I worked up the courage to walk into the 7/11 and ask for a turn, but all that practice at home did not exactly translate in the wild... So after I was finished getting my butt kicked I followed him outside while he smoked and that was when HE asked me if I was "the poor kid"... But then he said he's always really wanted to see the house next to the train tracks. His name is Craig. He's coming over tomarrow...

October 3 2013

It's wierd hanging out with guys. Tammy was around ever sense I was little and other guys...I don't know, but being around Craig is like....INSTANTLY just right.

I gave him the grand "poor kid" house tour AND took my revenge on the Okama Game Sphere. It was like I don't know...I finally found someone I feel normal around.

I walked him home and he gave me this tape and said, " You have GOT to listen to this!"

I haven't stopped playing it sense....

October 22 2013

Craig brought his hair dye over today. He said, "I need to fix these roots, think you could help?"

Dyeing hair is weirdly intimate.

I don't know if i've touched someone elses scalp before. Thats pretty intimate right?

It felt intimate...

We looked into the mirror together after and I expected him to say something about how it looked "crappy" or "good" or whatever, but thats when he said,"You're so handsome.." and he was looking at me. Right in that moment I wanted to say....SOMETHING,but I waited..and then the moment was gone..