Blooming

Heartbreak

Sweet kisses
Your kisses were like something special to me it almost felt as if magic was building between us. I miss your kisses but you probably don't miss mine.

Smiles
I never thought about how one persons smile could effect everything about me...seeing your smile was the best thing i ever witnessed, your smile brought light to my sad dark mind.

Fingertips
You don't really pay attention to the way your hands touch, i did though and when we held hands our fingertips would touch. Electricity shot through my body. That is what i like to call a connection.

Tears
You walked away and i cried. These weren't tears of sadness they were tears of anger.

Hatred
I tried with every bone in my body to hate you I'm just not capable of that kind of feeling or maybe I'm just blinded with the love I have for you.

Happiness
I'm happy that you're happy, I want to feel the same & ever since you left it's hard for me to feel that way again.

Memories
All the times we texted, all the times we kissed, all the times we laughed together, all the times we shared our feelings, all the time we spent in each others arms...it's just a distant memory now.

Laundry
It was time to do laundry I wasn't expecting to find your sweater at the bottom of my laundry pile but i did & i cried & cried & cried.

24/7
I think about you & me & how we could have fixed things to make us work.

Pathetic
Holding on to a person who's already moved on is pathetic...right?

First love
Finding your first love at 14 is really young but when I found you I guess you can say this is corny as shit but it was love at first sight.

Truth
I may seem fine but I swear I'm breaking apart everyday.

Anger
I hate how you make me weak, I hate being weak I don't understand how I let someone do this to me...I just don't understand any of this.

Suicide
It amazes me at how someone's actions could lead to a persons death.

Blame
I blamed myself for everything that went wrong with us. You left me with the guilt & you left me questioning if I deserve to love someone else.

Commitment
I'm so afraid of commitment because of you...i gave you 2 years of my life. I don't want to get left back again.

Blank
I just stared at the ceiling, tears streaming from my eyes. The ceiling started to fade away. This was one of those times that I wished that I could go to sleep & never open my eyes.

Promises
I promise to at least try, I promise one day to be happy, I promise i will learn from my mistakes, I promise to become a better person & show you that I don't need you to feel happy.