Jikook All it Takes

Confession

I looked over at V and Kookie once more. I hate how close they are. I know I should have been there more when Kookie first came into the group. I know I should have helped him come out a bit more. Maybe then he would love me as much as he does Taehyung. That would be better than feeling alone amd empty inside. Better than feeling like I am his least favorite in the group. I would give anything to be around him as much as Tae. Perhaps my hot temper isn't very helpful. Doesnt matter. I looked around me and noticed what everyone was doing. Jin and RM seemed to be talking about tomorrows events whilst J-Hope and a reluctant Suga played a bored game. And then there was V and Kookie. Talking and laughing. I wish to join them but I would probably just ruin the mood. I'm really not all that wanted. Even though I was sitting here clearly bored no one has bothered to include me. I sigh as my heart sinks even further into my chest as I see V nuzzle into Kookies neck a bit. I could feel tears sting my eyes so I stand up. No one says anything so I say nothing in return. I just go to my room to sleep. At least that's what I had wanted to do. Instead I walk into the room and get reminded that its time for me and Kookie to share. I go to his bed and lay on it. Its only 7 so I know he won't be coming in for a while. Instead of sleeping I bury my face into his pillow, curl up into a ball and cry. This was a routine. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. No one hears. I try to be quiet but even when I slip no one comes. No one cares. With that thought I cry even harder. Its not just the fact that I cant have Jungkook. Its the whole damned situation. I am always there for these guys but no one is there for me. Its as though I'm not wanted. I feel like they would all be so much happier if I just didn't exist. If I killed myself or just left then they could finally be happy. Even army might appreciate it. My family... I dont know if they would care. I told them I was gay awhile ago but they said nothing. They probably wouldn't miss me either. I cry harder until I fall asleep. I woke up the next morning and noticed I had a blanket over me and that Kookie was asleep in my bed. I pang of guilt went through me. I made him sleep in my bed because I took his. I really am a nuisance. I looked at his face. He looked so peaceful when he slept. Truly a golden Makanae. I smiled a little. It was moments like this where all of my pain was worth it. Even if he never will be mine. Seeing him happy and at peace is enough. I just wish we could be closer. I jumped as a knock rung at the door and to my surprise I saw Kookie jolt awake. He's a deep sleeper so to see that startled me as well. "Who is it?" "Its Jin. We need to start getting ready to go to the shoot so wake up Jungkook and start getting ready. We leave in an hour." "Okay." I looked at Kookie who looked like he wanted to murder somebody. Probably Jin for waking him up. "I'm sorry." I looked down at the bed as I said this. I sat cross legged facing away from the beautiful boy in the bed across from me. I saw him look confused. "For what?" "Taking your bed." He got up and stretched before grabbing some clothes. "Its alright. I just figured you were tired and crashed on what was closest to the door. You looked cold though so I covered you up." I blushed a little. Its stupid but it made me happy. "Thank you." "Sure. Do you wanna shower?" "No Its Okay. I will just shower after you." "Alright." After Kookie left I layed onto my back. I started thinking back to when he was asleep. His lips parted the way they were. What I wouldn't give to have him have his way with me. I began to feel hard so I traced my hands down to my member. Kookie takes decently long showers so I figured I would have time. I rubbed myself through my jeans I fell asleep in.
(Imma start writing in third person)
After a moment Jimin took off his jeans along with his boxers. He then grasped his member letting in a sharp inhale. It had been awhile since he was able to relieve himself. Jimin slowly started to pump feeling immemse pleasure in the first movement. He then put two fingers into his mouth before insertting them into his ass. "Ngh~" Jimin then moved his fingers in time with his hand around his member doing everything he could to keep from moaning too loud. "Ahn. K...Kookie~" Jimin said this quietly as he released onto himself. Normally it would take him a little longer but fuck was he horny. After pumping a few more times to get rid of his orgasm Jimin finally opened his eyes to Kookie standing in the hallway. "J..Jungkook!" Jimin quickly grabbed the blanket and covered himself. "Im so sorry. I will buy you knew sheets. Please don't be mad." Jimin had tears stinging the corners of his eyes while Kookie stood still shocked at what he had walked into. "Y...you normally take longer showers." "I'm not mad you were touching yourself. I'm just confused why you said my name." Jimin blushed even deeper if that were even possible. "I. Uhm. I... Kind of sort of... Like you..."