Kim Jonghyun.
My SHINee bias.
The man who has literally brought happiness into my life, passed away today. December 18, 2017.
I haven't been this heartbroken since my great-grandfather died, and I was about six or seven when it happened. I literally spent all morning either sulking or crying. I still can't believe this.
He was a beautiful soul. Not only was he funny, talented, and creative, he was himself. And he really inspired me to try to be happy again.
A goal that I had set for myself was to go see SHINee if they were to have another world tour. I want to go to the concert and then go to a signing or do a high-touch (at least I think that's what it's called). And I was gonna meet Jonghyun and tell him thank you for making me and the other Shawols very happy and that he was important to everyone, even if he thought the opposite. And I wanted to hug him and take a picture with him. But the part about meeting him will have to wait for a while.
I'm really going to miss him. His voice. His smile. His personality. Everything.
And Jjong, I know that you'll never see this, but I want you to watch over your boys, family, and all of your fans around the world. You left us too soon, but this world didn't deserve you anyway. This cruel dark world that we live in.
I love you and miss you. May you Rest In Peace my angel, wherever you may be.
❤️
#GoneButNeverForgotten
S/N: Jonghyun went through depression but never got the treatment he needed. My Undefined Nation, I'm begging you. If you need help, ask someone. (This makes me a hypocrite at the moment, but I will get help very soon.) It was already hard enough loosing Jonghyun, but I don't want to see any of you leave next. And if you want, you can talk to me. My inbox is always open.
1-800-273-8255
Suicide Prevention Hotline
You'll never know if someone will need it. Just imagine if someone gave this to Jjong. Maybe he'll still be here. Take care of yourself. Love yourself. Life is too short to be living in a mental Hell. I love you guys.
