Secrets All Around (girlxgirl)

Chapter Forty-Three

Dylan's pov

"Nooooo, Dylan!" Elya yelled at me. "No, no, no, no, no!" She repeated.

I sighed. I was sitting in Elya's room on her bed, while she was pacing. Instead of replying to her last text at lunch, I told her in the hallway that we'll talk about it after school. I had just got done telling her about how awkward I was feeling about Taylor. I took a deep breath. "Taylor has a girlfriend, Kacine. So, therefore I can't just casually go up to her and ask to fuck her. You know to see if it's just lust and not a small crush." I explained.

"No, Dylan. You can't do this to Taylor nor Kacine." She said, stating the obvious. "Wait, maybe you're right. It's probably just lust you have for her. I mean, you've banged studs before, right?" She asked in panic.

I sighed once again. "Yeah, but there's only two differences. One is that she's taken and two she's the hottest stud I've ever seen. I even admitted that to Kacine when I met her, but that was before they were official." I said, remembering that day perfectly. "What do I do, Eli?" I asked in desperation.

Elya huffed. "Well, three things. One, you can hang around her a little more to see if you actually have a crush on her. Two, you can stay the fuck away from her so you won't be able to rape her with your lust. And three, if you do find out it's more than just lust, you can keep your distance away from her." She offered.

I thought about it. I really never had a crush on anyone, but Elya. And I'm actually getting over her. Basically, sense I've only been in one relationship and I only know what lust is, 'cause all I really do is fuck. I don't really know what it feels like to have an actual crush on someone. For instance, I just believe that Elya started off as lust for me, but then I actually began to have feelings for her. Dammit, that's exactly what I'm feeling for Taylor, lust. Ugh, I just hope it doesn't turn into me having feelings for her, too. I thought. I let myself fall backwards onto her bed. "What the fuck am I doing?" I asked myself, than to Elya.

"I'll tell you what you're doing...You're soon going to mess up a perfectly good relationship if you keep these feelings up for Taylor." She said, stressing that I shouldn't like Taylor like that.

I rolled my eyes and sat up. I sat there for a moment thinking. I sighed. "I'll take all three options and see the results." I finally told her.

She connected her eyebrows in confusion. Her eyes then suddenly widen. "You're joking right? Even the first option?!" She asked in disbelief.

I nodded my head 'yes'. "Yeah, I mean. I have to explore sometime. I need to know if I like her or not." I said, truthfully.

Elya rolled her eyes. "Then why can't you explore with someone who isn't taken by someone else?" She asked. "Plus, you said you were getting to know her and I don't think one hour of lunch determines if you have a crush on her." She reasoned

"I know, but you don't understand. I was getting to know things about her that she elaborated on, like her whole life. I do like how sweet she is. Of course she can be childish, but she has her manners, too. And she-" Before I could finish my rambling about Taylor, she cut me off.

"First off, you're not the one who should be bragging about Taylor like that. That's Kacine's job." She stated. "And you need to stay away from Taylor, before you put yourself in some shit you don't want to be in." She said, sternly.

I huffed. I knew Elya was right, but right now I don't care. I needed to see if it's just lust I was feeling for Taylor, being that she's hot and all. "Okay, fine. I'll stay away from Taylor." I lied. I then spotted her phone on her nightstand. I then thought of something. "Hey, Eli. Can you go get me a cold bottle of water. I need something to keep me cool." It wasn't a complete lie, I actually did need it to clear my thoughts.