I am so afraid of what I may become without you. I will no longer be that laughing girl you fell in love with... I am not her anymore... At all... I barely eat, I barely stand up from my bed, my face that attracted you before, now has dark circles. I do not know how much will be left of that girl you fell in love with when we meet again.
I try to make you think I'm strong, but the truth is that I am so terrified... I am not sure if this would work. Everything in my life just sucks right now, you know? I don't know how to put myself back together... I've tried, believe me... When you sent that message, I swear, my heart stopped... I couldn't believe it... I knew it wasn't gonna be good at all, but still, I missed talking to you. After a while... You said that we had to make clear some things... I knew what all that was going for... But I didn't care... Three years... Wow, really. Do you think you won't forget me in that period of time? Someone way much better than me is gonna get in your life and I will be forgotten. But my golpe will still be there, I'll think and beg that in three years you call me again "Darling", "Deary"... And that you tell me you love me... I wish that so badly...
I don't want to forget you, if I try to do it, I would be a fucking bitch, for real, I would be that kind of women that fucks with every fucking gay she finds just to feel loved... I don't want to become that... I don't wanna end with my life, I don't want to be as fucked up as I am right now... So, please... Come back loving me and missing me, 'cause that's what I'll do.
