Hamilton Oneshots

Airplanes (LAMS)

(John’s pov)

    I sat there as everything finally started to make sense to me… I’m gay, always have been always will… I never thought about girls the way other guys did… I didn’t find them sexually appealing to me, I didn’t think I would end up with a girlfriend, I didn’t want a girlfriend… I only ever found other guys attractive, I’ve thought about kissing my best friend. I wanted to be more than friends with him… I wanted to be his boyfriend.

But I don’t even know if he cares about me the way I care about him, he seems to but I’m not sure. I love him with all my heart and he seems straight, he sometimes jokingly flirts with me and his other friends but he never seems serious...Alexander is my weakness. I want to spend all my time with him but I can’t be around him too long without wanting to kiss him so very badly. I  want to wrap my arms around him and feel his lips against mine. Though I know I can’t have that.

I see a small paper airplane fly through my window, it’s Alex. Alex and I have been friends since elementary school and this is how we talked to each other. We lived right across from each other since for as  long as I can remember. I unfold the airplane and read it.

Hey John it’s been awhile since I got a note from you, I think it’s been about 6 days, almost a full week. I miss getting your letters. Can you please tell me what’s wrong? You’ve even been avoiding me in school and I can’t stand third period without you. Did I do something to upset you? I didn’t mean to if so… I really miss talking to you, please write me back… I’m waiting to hear from you.

-Alexander

I read over it like 20 times as I try not to feel absolutely terrible at the fact that I made him think I was mad at him…. I could never be mad at him, he’s too cute and loveable for that. I sigh and think about what I should tell him. I mean this is midterm week and I always become a bit distant but this is like almost full on isolation in comparison to what I normally do…. I grab a piece of paper and a pencil and begin to write.

Hey Alex I’m so sorry I haven’t been writing to you as I normally do but I’ve been really busy with midterms and after school activities… And no you did nothing wrong, I don’t think I could ever be mad at you for more than 5 minutes anyways. But I haven’t been meaning to avoid you I’ve just been so scatterbrained recently over so much that I guess I just didn’t notice I was doing that to you, I’m sorry...And it’s been 6 days since I wrote to you? I didn’t even realize this I really am sorry.

-John

I finish writing and look it over, it looks good to me. I fold it up and send it on it’s way. Hopefully Alex will understand, and he’ll be okay with the fact I’ve been busy with midterms and school stuff… then again he maybe even more worried or something. I hope he doesn’t think I’ve been too stressed to do anything for myself… I should have asked him how he’s been and shit but I forgot too, whoops. But hey I could always ask in the next letter and fun shit like that… Was he still awake? I look at the clock and see that it's 1:45 AM. I hope he does get some sleep but I missed talking to him too. Is he going to respond soon or did I baffle him? I doubt that second one but still Alexander is hard to understand some days. I watch as the next little plane flies through my window. I catch it before it even lands and unfold it.

Oh my God I didn’t expect you to actually answer me! I’m so happy to finally hear from you again… and that actually makes a lot of sense… I should have realized that. Instead I thought you were avoiding me and I did something wrong to make you hate me. I really should have known that was wrong… But I was really worried about you and I missed getting your letters a lot. Like I thought you may have started getting sick or like someone in your family may have passed away. I’m really glad to hear that you’re alright… anyways did you figure out who’s the lucky lady that you’re going to ask to the winter formal? Considering it’s only a month away and whoever you’re going to ask will need to get everything ready and stuff like that.

-Alexander

I read over it again and think about who I wanted to take… I don’t want to bring a girl to the prom, I want to bring Alex, but I can’t. I bet he already asked someone, probably Eliza… unless he hasn’t asked her out yet, or anything else like that for that matter… Maybe I’ll ask Peggy and go as friends with her. No… wait Peggy was already asked by Laf… Angelica? No Herc asked her already. Damn it. I sigh and sit at my desk and quickly write.

Well I missed talking to you too…. anyways the person I want to ask probably already has a date to the prom. So what about you, did the amazing Alexander have a certain person in mind?

-John

I fold up the paper and send it on it’s way as I yawn and rub my eyes. Damn I don’t even want to go to bed yet, I finally started talking to Alex again and I didn’t really wanna stop now, especially on the topic of the prom…. though I think I’d be a little hurt if he did have a date to the prom. And knowing Alex, Laf, and Herc they would make me go with them and hang out with them without a date… and probably after an hour of being there and getting tired of them ditching me to dance and stuff I’d leave and they’d blow up my phone wondering where I disappeared to. I don’t feel like doing that this time.

I look up from my thoughts expecting a little paper airplane fly through my window, but no airplane. I look out my window at Alex’s and see that not a single light is on in his room. I guess he went to bed… I sigh a little upset he went to bed without sending me a goodnight letter or something. I start to get changed into pj’s as I hear the doorbell resonate through my house. I slowly go to the front door after getting changed, a little confused about who it could be at this time. I peek through the blinds and see it’s Alex and he’s holding something. I think for a moment and open the door. I look straight at what Alex is holding and I smile so widely that my cheeks hurt and I start to tear up in joy.

Will you go to prom with me?

-Alexander

(A/N: hey I'm sorry this is like super short but I thought it was a cute idea that deserved to be shared... anyways I really hope you guys enjoyed this short little cute story and if you guys want like anything (except smut... I'm trying to stay a pure bean) I would happily write something for you... I'll make a request page a little later anyways thank you so much for reading!)