Dear Jonghyun,
I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I didn't know it was this bad. I didn't know that you would do this. I'm so sorry.
It's so difficult for me to scroll through twitter without seeing people post things about how you did well, how you were such a beautiful person and how we could have saved you.
SHINee was one of the first groups I got into. I remember I saw my cousin watching the 'Hello' MV and she was trying to copy the dance moves. I liked your moves, voices and looks.
It upsets me that it took an idol's life for people to realize mental health isn't a joke.
I really miss you. I really love you. I'm sorry.
I wish this was just a stupid nightmare and I would wake up and see your beautiful smile. I keep accepting that this is reality, you really are gone, and then it hits me. You really are gone. And I couldn't do anything. I'll never see that beautiful face.
And even if I do, it's just a picture or a video. I'll never see you in real life. I'll never be able to tell you that you matter and that I love you, in person.
But still, I love you Jonghyun.
I wish the best for your friends, family and SHINee.
You did well, Kim Jonghyun.
You did really well.
