I just... idk 9 months doesn't seem like the amount of time.. your right it does only feel like a few weeks we've been together... I mean.. it seems like just yesterday I was messaging you for the first time... it's tripping me out.. with you.. time flies.. and well that's not a bad thing... it's also no the best.. cuz I'm not gonna have enough time with you in my life if it keeps going this fast... Patrick I need to be given multiple centuries with you... I need you everyday of forever... there isn't a moment that I wanna go without you. (Hence why ur not allowed to die first) I really didn't do anything to make you a better person.. I mean if anything.. I've tried showing you the real you... not who or what you think you are. I just wish I could do more. I wish I could really get you to a point of loving yourself. Cuz ughhh If only you could see zit... in my eyes you fill the sky with stars..
I don't believe in god.. but... if I did we're a match made a in heaven. The way we just complement each other in literal and non literal ways is just unnatural. Like I myself don't get what makes us so compatible. Or how we've made it over every obstacle thrown at us.. I mean it's like we're invincible... and.. I love it.. I love feeling and knowing nothing can break us apart but us... I love you. God I just... I love you so so much.. I mean how on earth did I get a man like you to fall in love with a girl like me. I mean.. it's just insane... it's stupidly unreal... I mean your everything I've ever wanted or thought I needed... you've set the bar so high that I'm really not gonna be able to be with anyone else (which I am 100% okay with lol) but it just really stresses the point of.. there's no one else out there for me. There's no one that can fill in the gaps like you can.. no one that can make me smile just by smiling at me... no ones that voice is like a music less lullaby... no one that just looks so amazing.. without ever having to put forth effort.. Patrick.. I'm honored to be called your girlfriend and even more so... I'm honored to have spent the past 9 months with your name on my status bar. I just wish I could show you off.. god I'd post pictures of you alll over my social media!!! I'd have hundreds in my gallery and anytime someone wanted to see you I'd unlock my phone and rub my wallpaper in their face lmao "BITCH HE FABULOUSSSS" lol people would be so scared to ask or talk about you around meeeee hehehe it'd be like people whispering at lunch "has Kenzie talked about Patrick at all lately..?" Then like I come outta no where "Did you say Patrick?" Everyone would look at me and like instant self hate on their faces "OMG SO YESTERDAY ME AND PATRICK BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAAHH AND BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BALH BUT BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH AND NOW BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH. Man I love him..." lmao literal obsession. Haha creepy girlfriend right here!
Anyways whole point of that was I'm so proud to be your girlfriend and it's the most amazing title in the world!! Like ugghhhh I'm Patrick's girlfriend!!! I can't believe it!! Of all however many billion people in the world. This man. Who is like a god. Who is so kind hearted, selfless, caring, and funny, (and sexy but like only I need to know that one.) understanding, and overall shares about the same goals with me.. I mean your literally my better half.. and I'm so honored it's you.. because I could never love someone the way I love you.. it's physically impossible. No it's mortally impossible. You are it. After you.. there's nothing... it's like the worlds gonna fade from existence.. because you gave everything life in my world.. you filled all the rivers.. planted all the trees.. painted the sky with clouds.. gave the night the moon for us to gaze up at.. filled my heart with unconditional love.. and gave me.. the only happiness I can have when I'm talking to you..
Take all that away and the world is blank.. in my eyes it's like a blank canvas with no picture..
Keep the colors in it please.. I really like our painting..
Patrick.. as you know.. I love you. But ima say it again. I love you. I know I'm not perfect but you sure like to treat me like I am.. heh... and honestly... that's not even on my reasons of why I love you..
Why do I love Mr. Patrick.. well... the reasons are simple.. strait forward... understandable and easily relatable.
I love Patrick because of his heart. I love Patrick, for not loving himself. I love Patrick for letting me into his world. I love Patrick for having courage to be with me through thick and thin. I love Patrick for being brave and relying on me to help him when he isn't so strong. I love Patrick for his smile. I love Patrick for the way his eyes twinkle. I love Patrick for the way he laughs. I love Patrick for his geeky ness. I love Patrick for giving me hope in love when I was giving up...
I wanna thank you Patrick.. if not for you.. I'd be in really bad place right now.. and I can't guarantee that I'd even be alive.. so thank you so so so much for being here.. being with me.
Ima end this cuz I feel really sick tonight and this screen is killing my eyes.. but I have more to say!! I love you so much!!!
So this is the morning... and.. I'm sorry about last night.. I know it wasn't what you wanted.. and I honestly slept awful.. I had 2 nightmares totally different.. and I woke up this morning puking.. so it wasn't just an excuse cuz I was "tired".. I'm sorry.. because I do feel bad.. and.. idk.. I just hope you'll forgive me... I'm gonna go lay in bed... but I love you... I hope you still love me..
