The Story of You, My Love

church camp.

It was June 4, 2017 when I saw you. But, I have seen you on social media. I was dating a boy named Jacob at the time, and Lillian thought me and you would look cute together. I insisted we wouldn't, because I thought I was deeply in love with him, but secretly I wasn't owning up to the fact we were having problems.

She then invited me to church camp. I was hesitant due to the fact I have not talked to anyone at her church, and I am very awkward and shy. But, I decided to go because she kept insisting.

She told me you liked her. I was fine with that, because I didn't know you. I was on my way to her house, because that's where the church van would be, when she told me this. We arrive at her house, and we are the first ones to find a spot in the van. One after another people would pile on, and I got more nervous by the person.

Then you walked on. My heart felt as though it had skipped a beat. But, as soon as I felt it, it diminished due to the fact I had a boyfriend and you had already liked Lillian. You and your friend Christian sat together, while me and Lillian sat behind y'all. She was talking to everyone as though they had been best friends with them her whole life, while I had only just met them. It hurt, because I was the one she has known for 7 years, while she had just met the people this year.

She kept flirting with this guy, but I was confused because he had a girlfriend and he was flirting just as hard. Getting uncomfortable, I had asked if anyone had earbuds I could borrow. Christian turned around and gave me his extra. I put the earbuds in, and I even remember the song. Rap God by Eminem.

I had just learned how to rap the speed verse, and rap calms me down. I didn't realize I was rapping out loud, but you knew. You told me this is when you knew you loved me, but how would I know? You turned around and starting smiling at me, and I could feel that I was blushing so I quickly looked away and changed the song. It was a 10 hour ride.

Once I got there we still haven't had our first conversation. I had an interest in you, but I didn't act on it. The first day was a blur, because it had consisted of Lillian continuously ditching me for people I had never met.

It was the third day when I finally talked to you. We were standing in line, when you asked about Lillian and a boy named Darrell. I had informed you they had just broken up 3 days before camp, but they still had feelings for each other. You sighed, then asked why I was standing in line alone and not with Lillian. I told you I was starving, and didn't want to wait on her while she flirted with him. You took that as a reasonable answer. In order to cheer me up you were talking about your "uniballer" (he had gotten shot in a nut 8 times, and he said it didn't work). Of course that was my first impression of you, and you made me laugh like I haven't in a long time.

You sat by me, and would rant about how you would try to talk to Lillian and she would ignore you and you only came to church camp to spend more time with her. I have decided at this point you were a really great guy, and I wanted Lillian to have one so I tried to help you. I didn't like you at this point. I would tell you what she liked and didn't like, but I also let you know she hopped from guy to guy, so beware.

We sat by each other at worship. I love to sing, and I've been dealing with depression for a long time, so the song "Come to the Altar" really spoke to me, so I poured my heart into singing that song. At the end of service, you told me I had a pretty voice. So of course, me being the shy person I was, said "no" and walked away. Gosh, I was so embarrassed. A cute guy complimented me! I didn't know what to do.

It was water day. we were all muddy and gross, and they had this thing where you could push each other off boards into the water with pipes with pool noddles at the end of each side. You wanted to go against me, and I won (even though you relentlessly say you won, but we both know I did). We then hung out for the rest of the time there.

Once we got back to Lillian's house you asked me for my number so we could talk about Lillian, so I agreed. I gave you my number, and the rest of the day you ranted about how much you liked her but was mad she didn't talk to you. Who knew that once I gave you my number, that it would be the start of a beautiful tragedy.

"I met you in the dark, you lit me up."