Loving Him {COMPLETED}

I Give Up

I figured (after I re-read this chapter a few times) to add a warning. So, WARNING!!!! THIS CHAPTER HAS SLIGHT SUICIDE!!!! IF YOU ARE HAVING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. SEEK HELP, AND DONT READ THIS CHAPTER! OR IF YOURE JUST TO SOFT. I warned you guys!!! There are some slight suicidal things and rape in this chapter....

YOUVE BEEN WARNED!!!!!!!!!

Chapter 27-

"Don't.. Please." I say. "I have to, you'll never love me anyway!" Logan says. "You don't know that! You don't know me!" Logan raises his voice, "Exactly! So what's the point?! You love him to much to not even think twice about how you feel about me!" My eyes burn from the tears threatening. "Logan please!" I plead. He shakes his head, "This is for our own good.." He raises the gun up and before he can shoot me, Ivan, or him, I jolt awake. "LOGAN, DONT!" I jump even more when I feel his arms tighten around me.

He jumps awake, "Shhhhh what happened?" I control my breathing. Why am I having all these strange dreams?! "I had a nightmare..." He nods, "Tell me." I huff and tell him my whole dream. "That's... Strange. Really, really strange." He says wiping the sleep from his eyes and stretching. "Well what time is it?" Logan asks. I check my phone. 15 past 11.." He nods then jumps. "Oh shit! I had to be at set by 10! Oh well... When am I not late?" He still gets up in a slight hurry though. "Logan you're gonna get yourself fired or something." He shrugs, "I know."

He takes a shower really fast, throws on some merch and we head down stairs. Brendon is already awake. "Did you stay with Logan?" He asks. I nod, then Brendon nods. "Um I'm running late to set sooo we need to hurry up with the vlog." Brendon nods and gets the camera. "Fuck.." I groan. Logan looks at me questionably. "I don't feel good.. At all and I have at least 10 missed calls from my best friend." He nods and Brendon comes back with the camera. Logan begins the intro and I stand beside him.

"Good morning Logang what's popping?! I'm running late to set so me and Rebecca are gonna go on." I wave at the camera and we all race out the door. Logan continues to do his vlogging as I tend to my phone. I decide to text Rose, not wanting to call where I'll interfere with Logan.

Hey. Why'd you call me so many times?
Hey! What's up with you telling Emilio I broke up with him?!
Hey! And bc that's still my friend no matter what, Rose. All I said was I'm sorry about y'all splitting and he said that y'all didn't! I can show you the damn messages. And technically if you didn't break up with him, YOU CHEATED BC YOU KISSED ANTHONY.
About like you kissed Logan?
How-?! You watched the vlog?! And I'm not with Ivan anymore or anyone for that matter! And the first time Logan and I kissed, we were all joking around!
No actually you sent me a picture of you and Logan kissing. And yes! Plz do show me the messages between you and Emilio!
Show me the picture of me and Logan kissing and I'll show you the messages.
I'm not stupid..
Neither am I, show me the fucking picture Rose.
I don't have to 😡
Goodbye Rose, I don't have to send you the messages either.
I'm not thru with you!
And?! If you're not gonna cooperate with me then... Oh well. I'm tired, I didn't go to bed until 1 or 2 this morning...
Probably fucking Logan...
No honey, I'm not like you, fucking everyone. I was actually just hanging out with my friends.. No one slept together in a sexual way. I did SLEEP NEXT to Logan, but we just talked for a little while then fell asleep.
Whatever, you know I can ask anyone in that house...
Dude what's your problem?! I haven't done a damn thing to you! I told you I was coming to Logan's and Jake even brought me!
YOU LEFT ME!
Bitch please! YOU left ME! I told you I was ready to go home and you insisted we stayed. I didn't want to so I came to my friends house. Sorry you don't like listening.
Whatever...
Yeah whatever.. Seems like you've been hanging out with the wrong crowd for to long.,,
It doesn't matter.. Fuck off.
Wtf?! Yeah.. I'm moving out, you wanna act like this for NO REASON?! Fuck YOU, Rose. I thought we were better friends than that.
And I didn't think you'd leave me..
Well no one pays you to think sweetheart, I'll be over at your house soon to get my stuff, I'm moving out.
Good riddance.
With pleasure
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