A Way Back

Chapter 5

Elizabeth POV
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"What are you doing here?" We uttered in one full spoon as he approached me.
"I'm the new employee. And you are ..." I pointed at him shocked as well "The director yes" He answered. Suddenly he gets steamed up.
" What do you want ?" he uttered  with livid eyes
"First of all, My director informed me to work here, so clearly you should know I'm the new exponent. I wasn't aware that you are the director. Second of all, I'm here to work So it has nothing to do with you" he runs a hand on his face looking away from me.
"What if I don't want you to work here?   !" He said giving me angry challenging stares.
"You can't!" I shouted " because I worked hard to be here. And you can't kick me off just because we have a history together " I shouted not controlling my feelings.

"The history I regret actually!" he snapped " how didn't I study your information before " He cut me off turning to his desk and picked a paper "Elizabeth Hudson " he murmured with a disappointed tone:
" Personnel life has nothing to do with work. I lost many things for this  and I'm not letting you spoil it for some shitty memories " I followed him placing my hands on his desk.  He reduced the distance between us "But it is my company " He focused on the last word with a smirk on his face "I have the right to do anything I want as much as I have the right to choose who works here and who needs to be kicked off."

I looked down biting my inner cheeks, Tears were at the back of my eyes. I didn't know what should I do, my dream was fading in front of my eyes. It can't be real. I sacrificed a lot of things to get here and one of those things was him. I couldn't  get beyond him no matter how much I convinced myself that he meant nothing. His eyes, smell, and every small detail about him. I loved him sincerely even that he still think I betrayed him. My dream was covering my eyes on anything else even the person I loved most. I had to leave him to study In NYC.  I wanted him to lose hope in me so I made him hate me instead of telling HIM the truth.
FLASHBACK
I set on a chair near the window in one of the coffee shops that Chris and I usually attend. I was waiting for Ian one of our friends to show up.  I was nervous yet I tried to act normal. If I had the choice I will never do this to Chris, but it's better than saying goodbye. I won't be able to say a word to him. Just looking into his blue eyes will make me break down. We've been together for 4 years as lovers but our friendship took place in primary school. Moreover, our mothers were working at the same place. We were so close to each other. He was my best friend and devotee at once. But now I'm planning to leave him forever. It's so hard to even think about it. But sometimes we have to close something to open another. There is no in-between. I'm feeling my heart cutting through pieces, I didn't know it's that hard to let go of someone – the one you love- I Know he will abhor my existence but it's better than empty promises.
"Hey!" someone said. I looked up to glance at Ian's sad eyes "Are you sure you want to do this, You don't even seem comfortable with it "He situates himself on the chair looking directly into my eyes. He was as nervous as me, especially that he was also Chris's friend. And after that, he will lose him.
"I know it's hard for you to do this  and believe me I'm not any less. I'm feeling like I'm going to explode, But the message had been sent to him. He is on his way, there is no coming back" I ran a hand through my hair in confusion.
" But I could just go and you'll have a nice cup of tea with your boyfriend" My eyes harden at Ian. "Ian stop! You promised! You are not going to leave at the last moment" I shout at him, cry at the back of my eyes.
HE IS WALKING TOWARDS THE SHOP. NOW !!!!
Anna send me the message and I made a sign to Ian. He nodded and took my hands onto his before he laid close to my face staying close for few seconds. When Chris walked in Ian acted like he is kissing me –movies kiss-he stayed like that until we heard Chris Shouting my name.  we both stood in shock when we realize Chris was standing in front of our table . Eyes were throwing blaze yet you can see sadness hidden inside.
"How could you..... You Betrayed... "He said with a slow voice. He seemed broken even though he looked like he is going to murder someone. He was looking at Ian not giving any attention to me. "Since when ?" He questioned Ian. The poor were so confused; He give me the "that's so wrong" look. I thought he was going to back up but instead, he said. " 2 months. I couldn't hide my feelings for her when she seemed to share the same. I love her " Chris punched Ian strongly till he falls to the ground. I shouted laying to check Ian. Even that all I ever wanted is to hug Chris, lay in his arms, and tell him how much I love him. But life doesn't  always go our way. Tears dripping from my eyes from the pain inside, but I acted like it's for Ian.
"You were my friend... I trusted you ...." He shouted pointing at Ian Then left furiously. When I got sure he is  far away I stood from the ground crying hard. I cried even louder when Ian hugged me trying to release my pain. But I was damaged entirely; nothing was able to stop my soreness.
"It was your plan and here you won, Chris is shattered and you are in pain. Tell me what you got from this. Wrong idea, wrong situation everything is wrong about this. You know that I only did this for you but here you are broken in front of my eyes. It's kind of hard to see my two best friends enduring"Ian said covering his face with his hands.
"It wouldn't Last much, Few days and we will be forgetting about each other. He will get busy with his study, find a better girl and I will realize my dream, done. " I said wiping the tears from my eyes trying to be strong.
"You know that you are being a materialist. It's not good for you Elisabeth. We are heart and mind, you can't just margin your heart and follow  your brain"He uttered with depressed eyes. "Everything is forgettable. Like I loved Chris I will forget him and I'll fall in love again but if I miss this chance there isn't another! If I told him about my plans he will insist on going with me, but his parents need him a lot. Adding to that I can't do a distance relationship! I can't, me and Chris were always together, the idea of not having him close to me will torture me. So the best solution is ending this so everyone will be at ease ". Tears are not willing to stop.
"Who said you'll be able to fall another time. What if Chris is the love of life? And you are going to continue your life empty-hearted" he said including a challenging look. I bit my inner cheeks gazing around. "If we are made for each other we will find a way back . And then we can continue our love story as if it has never ended" I fake a hopeful smile.
"You are being selfish. What does it mean to hurt someone and come back to him as nothing happened, don't you take his feelings or even his choices into considerations, You only care about yours and how you are going to forget. don't you think of the harm you are going to cause him?  Well, you girls think that only you can get hurt and we do not ?" Ian was pissed off. And I couldn't do anything but nodded at his talking even that deep inside I'm still holding on to my decision and nothing can change my opinion.
"Well forget about what I said, I'm going now. Good luck with your dreams, I really wish you the best Elizabeth "He said before leaving the coffee shop. I took myself and left home to be faced with so many memories . I kept on crying until I fell asleep.
FLASHBACK ENDS