Symphony

Read pt.2

   I slumped myself in my comfy bed while my hand still holding the yellowish paper.Demanding either to read it or not.

I sit straight and readying myself even my heart to all the consequences that might happen.

  Slowly I open the two folded paper ,revealing the same first word.

For you,Oh Hye Ri.

I don't know how to say this ,but I really missed you a lot...
I missed your accompany...
I missed how you would nagged at me when I didn't even eat my medicine..
I missed you being by my side...
I missed all of you...

I know that I will sounded cruel when I said this but I can't hold myself anymore to keep this feeling and being a fool by still believing that I love her,the one that had hurt me a lot.
I was such a coward to not realize your feeling for me and even worser...my own feeling for you.

I guess God really hate me when he give me the brain cancer and doesn't give me a chance to tell you  by myself that I really ..really love you more than a friend does.

I am sorry that I can't be with you any longer,I know that I have no time left and I've hurt you.

I hope that you would  be over me and live your life happily.
Please don't cry,and please...forgive me for hurting you and being such a coward and fool.

And I hope my heart that I've been wanting to donnored to you will suits you well and you would live a better life with it.

I was really afraid that time when you fainted at the pedestrian near my house.I was the one who called the ambulance and was the first one hearing the doctor explaination about your health before your brother.

           And ...before I put a fullstop to this letter ...I want to tell you that you were the one that inspired me in composing songs.
     Even when I said that the song I had made was for her and she was my  Symphony,the one that inspired me a lot in making song ,I lied.I lied to you .

You were my real inspiration,
My chords,
My music,
My song,
My love,
My melody,

My Symphony.

Tears won't stop streaming down my face,this only make me felt more pain as I couldn't be with him anymore.But why hyung lied to me about the donnor,he said that the donnor was a girl and he never mention about Jimin donnoring his heart to me.

I dialled his number hoping to get to talk to him eventhough I know he was really busy.

"Nae,Yubos..."
"Why you lied?"
I ask him with a few sniffled that escaped from my lips .
"Are you crying?"
"Why you lied to me?Hyung ah...answer me."
"Is it about Jimin?"
"Yeah,Why?"
"He ask me to not tell you .He said that he would tell you by himself and I guess he doesn't make it."
"So ...along the days I'm in  the hospital, was  he there too?"
"Of course,he came for a check up to make sure if his heart suits you so that he could donnor it to you .But before the dates of the heart transplant came he had fainted at his house ,I had found  him lying infront of his computer desk with no signs of live so I brought him to the hospital."

"But I didn't see you when the doctors and nurses bring him to the ER."

"I was at the front counter filling some documents for the heart transplant as he had filed a will to give his heart to you eventhough he had dead."

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?"
I ask while sobbing hard.
"I'm sorry."
"I have to hang up now,I want to go to Jimin's place."
"Okay,Be careful,Hye Ri ah."
"Bye."
"Bye."