Can any of you relate or is it just me struggling with myself to stop stressing over the future and concentrate on the present. Sometimes your mind remains stagnant. It remains stagnant until you realize what the issue is and how to get rid of it. But not all issues could be gotten rid of. It's difficult. It's difficult to control your mind sometimes. You try to divert it as much as possible but instead of helping yourself, you end up messing up the situation you put yourself into. You can call it an indirect multitask. Instead of nailing both the activities,you mess them up simultaneously. Sometimes the certain things that you plan to save yourself from the future consequences don't go accordingly. It hurts. Cause then you've not only ruined your time planning it but also you've ruined your day you planned it for. Everything messes up. It's more like when you are forced to have a sweet when you've just had your favorite toffee. You can't feel the sweet and you've lost the taste of your toffee. You don't feel the taste of what you are eating. It's messed up. Just like the plan you thought of executing it on a particular day and when the day comes you don't feel like doing it no matter how many times you've counseled yourself for the consequences. That's where you start stressing out. At this point, your mind is not ready to take in any positivity no matter how many minor things you've achieved that day from breathing to preventing the self-harm. You just cannot tell yourself it's okay to have one day messed up anymore. You just cannot. And definitely crying it out won't work. But, they say taking a nap helps out. It does- sometimes. But taking nap won't turn your failure to success but it does help you to get back to your feet again after letting your brain to shut the hell up for a couple of hours until it's ready to function properly again. Just like any other desi parent would do with their tv remote. Once if the tv remote is unable to do its job for a second,they start banging the remote on the table until it works properly again. And maybe the bang is what we need maybe.
