how I feel right now.

1 today and now

I want to tell you how I feel.
But I can't.
Why? You may ask.
I'm not the popular girl that is out going.
I'm scared that I will loose you as a friend and loose you forever.
I'm scared that if we even end up together I will break your heart like I broke other things in my life.
I feel like the poison and you are the rat.
I'm am the cigarette that will slowly kill you from the inside.
The one that will affect your heart.
I am the addicting drug that will kill you and will carry on killing.
But I don't want to.
And that's why.
I won't tell you how I feel.
That is why when you talk I seem uninterested or extremely interested.
Cause I don't know how to act around you.
You are like a cute little stray cat.
I will never know how you will respond to my actions.
And that is why I won't pick you up from the streets.
Although I really want to.
You are like my alergy but I still want you so bad that I will die if that's what it takes to have you.
It's like romeo and Juliet.
You are Romeo.
And I am the poison.
I won't tell you about my feelings.
And this was why.
😥

A/N
Sorry if that sounds depressing but I feel this very often.