the first of many || my diary

day one | a new day, a new me

i could lie to you and say that i'm actually afabulouscelebii and i'm coming to kill you all, but since that's too fucking 'amazing' for me and my basic bitch self, i'm just gonna start with

hi, i'm brie. or rather, alexis. call me alex, rat, bitch, dicksucker -- i respond to all.

where do i even begin with myself? 

i said in the desc. of the diary that you'd get a better understanding of me, but since i'm just rAMBLING idrk if you wilL LMAO 

k so diaries work like they tell you things everyday, but i'mma change it up a bit

i'm going to tell you about the next 30 days of my life. exciting, right? no? yeah, i agree.

this will also be my vent diary, yaaaay </3 

so let's start out with "i lied to everyone and said i was going to kill myself."

basically the thing behind that is i wanted to kill myself. i was going through abuse (verbally and physically) at the time so i thought everyone was fake, no one would care if you even died, you're someone out of a million people on the internet- 

but everyone ended up..caring. and loving me.

and i appreciated it tons.

i have amazing friends online. i'd like to give a huge shoutout to all of my discord friends, if they even use this shitty app anymore lmAO

my discord is dorkyist#9040. feel free to add me.

i've changed drastically in a way that i don't like in the past year or so.

i've become more depressed, i've stopped eating and i've barely talked to anyone offline.

what's wrong with me? i don't have any clue. 

maybe we'll find this out together in the next chapter.