Mute

Chapter 9- Sleepover p.2

Kat's P.O.V:

I looked up at Calum, my eyes widening as a realize the small distance between our lips. I feel his breath on mine as his gaze changes from my eyes to my lips, his pupils blown wide. I can't help but glance at his pink lips every once and a while, us staying in the same position for what feels like hours but is really only seconds. His forehead touches mine and we close our eyes, leaning in slowly. I felt his lips brush against mine-

"KAT! CALUM! HURRY UP IN THERE WE'RE HUNGRY!!!" We hear Luke scream from the other part and we jump away from each other. I blush and look down, averting my gaze from his as I see a pink blush tint his cheeks as he stares at me. I look up at him after a few seconds and see him still staring at me, but his cute blush is gone and he's now smirking at me. My eyes widen even more, if that's even possible, and I quickly go over to the microwave, taking the popcorn out and picking up the sodas before walking out of the kitchen and into the living room where the boys are still cuddling and watching the movie.
When I walk over to the boys, they all look up and smile.

"Thanks Kat" they say in unison.

I sit down next to Michael, him leaning his head on my shoulder and wrapping his arms around my waist.

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The credits rolled and I went to get up and clean off the coffee table but froze in my place, too scared to move as the while room went silent, nobody daring to make a move. It was so quiet in the house you could hear a penny being dropped on the carpet upstairs. Calum uttered those words, the ones I feared to be let out and hoped he forgot about after our.. moment.

"Kat isn't eating right"

Nobody moved, me awkwardly standing in the middle of the room, a sudden flashback showing through my mind at the similar situation.

..,..,..,..,

I stood in the middle of the room, Frozen in place, the sign I was holding up saying the words my mum feared most.

'I'm Mute'

A little piece of me broke seeing my 3 best friends expressions, holding many different emotions but the only things I could focus on were the disappointment in each of their usually twinkling eyes. I felt a few years threaten to escape, but held them back, trying to stay strong as I moved the sign to the back, revealing the next of my slightly sloppy handwriting, dried tears visible on it.

'I'm so sorry. I know you guys have been worried about me since I haven't been speaking but I can assure you that I'm fine. I love you all and I'm still going to be the same old me I always have been, it's okay if you guys want to leave me, I'll understand just as u did with all my other friends. I told them a few days before you since I wanted to tell you all privately, that's why all my friends suddenly stopped talking to me and I started getting pushed around a little. I love you all so much'

it said and the longer they all stared at it the more I could imagine what would happen next. Will they all walk out on me? No, they wouldn't, they have been my best friends since forever. But I thought my other friends loved me too and they left me the minute I told them so they didn't lose popularity.

Face it Kat, they are just going to leave you in the dust just like everyone else did. They have the right, too. You're just a no good piece of crap that's broken and doesn't deserve to be fixed. All you do is hurt people and I wouldn't even be surprised if they started bullying you too.

I cleared my head from the depressing thoughts but I could feel the masses of tears rolling down my face, seeing them all just sitting there, none of them moving, the room completely silent. Nobody was moving and no matter how hard I tried pushing them out like I have been since I was 5, the depressing thoughts just kept coming in, finally pushing a broken sob to come out of my mouth.