Diary of a Sad Girl

God , Can you hear me?

Today is day four being home alone. There is no food in the fridge and my body feels
. Mama said she was going to the store and she was going to make me pork chop and some greens, but that was four days ago. I️ should've known not to believe her or listen to anything she says. Now here I️ am just here alone in the dark constantly awakened from my deep slumber with police sirens and gun shots. I️ wish these people will shut the hell up , don't they know I️ got school in the morning ? I️ wonder if mama is safe out here in the streets, I️ pray that she is protected from the cold as she spends another night out. The lady next door always comes to check on me when she knows mama is gone , but I️ haven't seen her lately. I️ really haven't seen the outside of these four dirty walls since Mama left with her boyfriend Roc. Man I️ hate Roc with his crooked teeth and dirty clothes. The smell of piss and liquor hits your nose before he can even arrive in the room. Roc is a bad man , one time after I️ went to sleep in the bed room and saw him slap mama so hard that her frail body flew across the floor. I️ went to go hit him to save mama , but it was less than two seconds before I️ felt the burning sensation on the right side of my cheek.Tears started to form in my eyes and I️ felt the where his hand landed on my face swell. I️ couldn't believe this happened to me, I️ just wanted to save mama . I️ can remember after he left and mama held me as we cried together on the kitchen floor . The room was dark and hot , but I️ hugged mama so tight I️ heard her heartbeat and those three words came out that I️ never heard her say before " I️ love you "
"I️ love you too mama"
I️ was so happy to find out that mama loved me. That's why every night I️ get down and say a prayer for her.
"Hello God , Can you hear me ? It's Sarah. God can you please let mama come home ? I've spent four days sick and worried about her. Can you please make sure she's somewhere safe out there and not with Roc? Can you make sure that she has something to eat and water to drink ? I️ know when she comes home she's going to make me the juiciest pork chop and the most mouthwatering greens , but God can you make sure that mama has enough money ? I️ promise I'll be on my best behavior at school , I️ won't steal no more apple pies from the lunch room, and I️ will go to tutoring. God just please make these things happen for me .
In the name of Jesus
Amen"