my salvation

Chapter 1

I've been through a lot, more than the average teenager.

There is one thing that's kept me going through all of this and that is a bond that not everyone shares a bond so strong it would take the power of God to break it.

This is the story of me my life and my horse, come along for the ride but when we fall down promise me you will get back up and back on. Some people don't believe me think I'm just attention seeking but reality is I don't really care if I'm not perfect or classed as weird because it's not me who is ugly it's society . belive me if you want everyone has their own opinion.

"Lucy LUCY !!" that's my mum, as you could of guessed by the immediate raise If her tone of voice . I like my mum she's the only one that really understands me and we both live in fear of the same thing so we get along very well.

"clean those dishes father will be home soon and you know what will happen if those dishes aren't clean"

"yes mum" I mumbled

my father was not the kindest man. He had to have everything done a certain way if something was out of line then we would soon know about it. One night he came home to a pile of dirty dishes and he went nuclear smashing everything in his path tearing through the house like a tornado showing no mercy. I didn't know it then but I soon found out later that on that one night things had got out of control when mymum stepped in and all I remember is feeling like I was drowning in the vast ocean even though I was in the comfort of my bed. that's when it all started well I mean my constant panic attacks and anxiety . I later git bullied for this at school but I don't care what other people have to say they can join the question of people waiting for me to give a shit about them .