My name is Will Catey. I am a dauntless initiate going though my second stage of initiation. They injected me with the needle that would put me into my fearscape. A fearscape is a landscape with your worst fears in it. You either have to face the fear or get your heart beat to a steady rate. If you steady your heart or beat the fear you move to the next and so on until you have faced them all. I stepped into the room and immediately I was trapped in a box that was closing around me. This was my first fear, claustrophobia. I made my body as small as possible taking deep breaths trying to calm myself slowing my heart rate. I took one last breath and then I was put into my next fear. I was in the middle of the ocean. All of a sudden my feet were being pulled at. This fear was drowning. I decided to face this fear and swam further and further down. My lungs burned and I sucked in water trying to breath. Then my fear changed again this time on the top of a skyscraper. I backed against the wall getting as far away from the edge as possible. My fear of heights. There was no way I was facing this one so I took deep breaths again and closed my eyes pretending I wasn't there. I opened my eyes and I was in a room with a gun in front of me. I looked up to see my family in front of the table. I heard a click and a woman said shoot them or you die. I looked up at my family and turned to the woman and said no. I heard a bang then opened my eyes and I was on the sidewalk at the corner of two roads I saw one of my friends in a car coming to the intersection and another car coming the other direction. I yelled for my friend to stop, but she didn't show me a passing glance. This was my fear of not being able to stop the people I love from getting hurt. I closed my eyes knowing I couldn't stop it. I heard the crash and opened my eyes. I was back in the fearscape room. I was done and my hands were shaking. I walked out and sat down trying to calm myself. I put my hands over my eyes and took deep breaths. the only thing that made me more scared was the fact that I would have to do that again tomorrow. I went to my room to rest and get ready for the next time I had to do it. I feel into a restless sleep dreading the next day of training in my fearscape.
