Tiahna Pov
Hello can anyone hear me?
Can anyone feel my pain?
Can anyone even love me?
All those thoughts running around in my brain. All I can do is stare at the knife I'm holding. A voice in my head saying ,"who cares if you live or die just do it." I began to pierce through my melanin feeling blissful. Then darkness consumes me............
48 hours before
7:00am
The sun shines on my face only makes the pain worse. When there is light I die inside every day wishing why did I even wake up. Then "kaboom" he entered the room. He walks towards me calmly just to say, "I am a whore. The worst daughter ever. Your mom is dead because of you." He slaps and kicked me around a little bit then leaves.
7:30am
Crying only makes me weak like physically weak. I try to stand up after the beating but failed so I had to crawl my way into the bathroom. Closing and locking the door to get ready for my day.
8:15 am
I walk out the house to ride the school bus. As I got on the bus I put on a fake smile and sat with my best friend trippie. We talked about going to prom and graduation since it was a few weeks away. As I let trippie talk I was focused on his eyes. They were caramel mixed with chocolate chips
Lol.
Trippie is like a snack to me. It is weird he reminds me of cookies lol. His lips are so light and plump I really wanted to kiss them but no. He has eyes for another girl. Her name is cherry.
Ooooo I just hate her. She is cheating on him but he doesn't care he is just to lost in the sauce #pussy. Anyways the bus stops and me and trippie gets off and goes to breakfast.
Skipa to 3:40pm
I waited for trippie to ride to bus but he doesn't get on. So as I ride alone I was thinking will trippie really miss me. He always been there for me but when he is with cherry he changes. Like today at lunch he didn't sit with me he sat with her. But no I'm not jealous of her because he chose her to be his girl.
I cannot get mad over another girl that's just not me. I just hate to be ignored because my father does that only when he is not hurting me.
6:00 pm
I lefted my house to go see trippie we kinda have a smoking session to release our pain every once and a while. We specifically made plans to do it today. As I knocked for like forever I thought he would have opened the door but it revealed cherry instead. She let's me in and I find trippie in the living room chilling as always. I said hey but he just says, "Can we talk"? So I said,"OK let's talk then". I sat down on the couch and she sits near him too close for my liking but Oh well.
He looked at me and said,"Cherry does not want me hanging with other girls". I laughed a little bit considering trippie knows what goes on in my house. So why is he picking her over me this must be a joke. He then yelled at me,"This is not funny". Then the she devil spoke up saying,"This is why I don't like her she does not care about anyone but herself she can't even be serious for you trippie". I was getting ready to hit her but I refrained myself.
I said,"Trippie why are you choosing her over me I have been there for you before this bitch was even thought of".
A moment of silence......
👏snack
This bitch just hit me in my face so guess what Imma have to do what I have to do. I beat her ass black and blue. I dragged her and pulled her hair out. Then trippie peeled me off of her and slammed me into a wall. He slapped me. After he realize what he did he let me go and I ran back home to another monster drinking himself away.
7:00pm
No one will miss me anyway's. I guess my Saturday plans are still on. Time to face to truth and just die because no-one cares anymore. I took my last shower that night before I take my last breath tommorow.
9:00 am
I woke up to my phone going off. As I took a look and it was the trader himself trippie. I decided to read his messages since I where planning on dying later.
Trippie messages:
I'm sorry tiahna
I was just mad that you hit my girl.
Look I'm so stupid you are my best friend please answer.
I broke up with her she was just using me for weed.
I love you T pls answer
As I looked at the messages I through my phone at the wall. Now he loves me after that bitch used him. I was just a number 2 to him.
Throws a tantrum for hours
12:00am
Trippie came over my house three hours later. Thank god my dad was at work so I couldn't get in more trouble than I was already in. Trippie entered the house and yelled at me. He said,"Why in the hell haven't you been texting me back".........
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