Dear mom,
I’m trying. I know that I will never be as smart or successful as Sierra. It is literally impossible. We are two different people. I’m sorry I want to be an accountant instead of a
big shot heart surgeon. I’m sorry if i’m not dead serious about everything. I have a sense of
humor and i’m annoying but that’s who I am.
I’m sorry i’m not like Sapphire. I will never be as mean and as serious as Sapphire. I will
never be as athletic as her. I will never have the ability be as “hardcore” as her. I’m a more gentle
person. I don’t resolve things with anger or violence. Just because I don’t immediately start
yelling at someone when they say something that offends me doesn’t me I don’t stand up for
myself. I don’t let the words of others get to me like Sapphire. I know that they are just words. I can tolerate people calling me names because when I don’t let them get to me, all it does is make
them look like ignorant. I’m not weak or lazy because I don’t fight back.
I’m sorry i’m not as mature as Summer. She’s 22 and i’m 16, there should be a maturity
difference. I don’t have kids like her and I am not old enough to live on my own. I might joke or
laugh at inappropriate times, but that’s a coping mechanism not immaturity. I’d rather laugh and make jokes about wanting to die than be mopey and depressed. I do this so I don’t make “the vibe” all mopey and depressed. If one person in a room is upset it’s off putting for the rest of the people i the room. I like to pretend to be happy so that everyone else isn’t unhappy. I’m not a people pleaser, i’m just not a downer either. I’m sorry i’m not like you. I’m sorry that I don’t go around complaining about everything and then saying i’m tough because I do it anyway. I’m sorry I don’t believe in the same things you do. I’m sorry that I believe in love and that love is for everyone. I didn’t know that being gay, and sensitive, and open minded would make me a failure.
Sorry,
Selena
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Sorry
Non-FictionI actually typed this as part of my composition final for school and I liked it so I figured I should post it.
