Jungkook Angst

Only You

Thursday

9:45pm
As usual I'm waiting for my boyfriend to come home from his work. He should be home by 10 pm like always.

10:56pm
Checking my phone as I kept on waiting. Maybe he has something important to do like he always told me. Maybe because of traffic.

1:18pm
I woke up from the couch and looked around. "Jungkook? are you home yet?" I checked my phone again and still he didn't reply me. I got up and waited for him in the room but I fell asleep.

Friday

7:31am
Woke up slowly as I yawned and looked around. There's no sign of him. Again I kept on checking my phone. I checked my phone like everyday and anytime. He didn't reply my texts. I kept on spamming him. I called him. He didn't answer as well.

12:09pm
"Please answer me.. Jungkook please.." I mumbled desperately under my breath.

4:26pm
I didn't bother to eat as I'm worried sick about him. It's been 2 weeks. He never been this way. He always, he WILL replied me no matter what because he knows how stubborn I am.

Saturday

11:12am
"Where are you..?" I silently crying. My mom and brother kept on calling me and texted but I didn't want to answer. I can't live without him. "Are you really.. leave me.. now?"

Throwback
"Y/n.. can I ask you something?" as he playing with my fingers. I giggled.

"Just ask bunny~ you never asked my permission tho.. why now?" He smiled a little because I pinched his cute nose. He liked that so much.

"Because this question kept playing in my head lately and I just wanna know your answer." After he cleared his throat he continued, "um.. w-what if.. each one of us, leave each other? I mean what will happen to you?" He stared into my eyes.

"Why.. are you asking that question? You know I don't like it don't you?" I told him as glared at him but I stayed calm. He's being weird.

"Because.. I want you to just.. ready for anything and be strong" He caressed my cheek as the wind blew on my face softly.

"Are you gonna leave me?" I let my tears fell down. He looked down. "Jungkook, a-answer me.."

He gulped before he looked at me and answered "Of course not. Why would I leave you? I only have you. Baby I loved you, I still love you and I will love you till the day I die. Even I am not here with you, I will love you. Only you." He gave me a peck on my cheek. Held my hands tighter. "I just want you to be strong day by day because I am not right now." I saw his tear fell and that I know something's off about him. "Jungk-" he stopped me by kissed me slowly. He pulled away. "You are my strength, my light, my everything. Please.. be strong just.. for me.."

Sunday

7:16am
My dad called me today instead of my mom and brother. Still ignoring and only waited for Jungkook's call and text. What happen to him? Why didn't he answers me. I was a messed. I kept sobbing. I didn't eat nor I go outside because before he ignored me like this, he once said "please stay at home. I have a suprise for you after my work" I kept waiting but he kept on ignoring me.

8:57am
I heard knocks on my door. Jungkook? Running to the door and opened it. I saw my mom, my brother and my dad. It disappointed me a little. Maybe a lot. "Mom? did you see him? He must told you to checking on me right? Mom where is he? I missed him. He didn't reply me. Never answer me. I am worried. I can't l-"

"Y/n.. what are you talking about?" My dad growled at me. "Dad.. I missed him. He promised me he will not leave me. I missed him.."

My mom let out her tears. "Baby please.. don't be like this.. don't live like this.. he.. he is.." she stopped. "He what mom?" "Mom please answer me? I need to know I wanna meet him so bad" I kept crying as I waited for her answer but only she cried in front of me. "Mom what's wrong? what happened to him? what happene-" "Noona he is no longer here! Please wake up! He is dead! Dead!" I let go my mom's hand slowly. "H-he w-what? yah.. don't say that! He is still alive!" My brother sighed and then he stared at me and held my hand harshly. "Come with me" "what are you doing?! let go of me!" He was too strong and I just followed him as I heard my mom and dad yelling at him to stop. Unfortunately he didn't and kept walking to his car and pushed me in.

We arrived at a place that I know I don't really like it. I am scared. Scared for the truth. Cemetery. "W-why are you brought me here?" "You want to meet him right? He is here. Get out and meet him." "Are you crazy?! Don't play with me! He is not here!" My brother got out and forced me to get out and made me walked behind him.

"Here. He is here" He stopped infront of one grave. I gulped and held my tears to fall down soon. I know if I look at it, I need to let go of something I treasure.. "I-I don't want.." I cried at my brother's back" "Noona.. you need to wake up.. don't live like this anymore.. he wants you to continue your life normally even you love him very much. You missed him, I know that but please.. I want the old you back.. Noona please" he wiped my tears. I finally looked at it and started to cried as I realized he is not here with me anymore.. He died 2 weeks ago because of accident. He also had a cancer. I aware about that and stayed by his side for 6 years.. Only for him.. I stayed and loved him for all my heart. I could give my soul to him if I can.. those were all when he was still with me. And now.. He is not here anymore. The only thing I can do is.. stay strong and still.. love him no matter what. Only for him. Only you, Jungkook.