Polyamorous

Alone

1945, the war had ended (y/n) was 24 and alone. 2 weeks after the end of the war fearing for her safety Howard forced her to moved in with him. While everyone was celebrating the end of Hydra and the war (y/n) had fallen into a deep depression. She had been so consumed with depression, PTSD, and anxiety Howard has to hire an at home nurse to take care of her. There were days where she couldn't get out of bed she didn't have emotional. physical, and/or mental energy to even more and other days where she couldn't go to bed it brought discomfort and high emotions just to think about bed.Even with Howard, Peggy, Jarvis, and Christina, her personal nanny (y/n) felt so empty and alone.

Peggy couldn't completely understand why (y/n) was like this everyone had lost Steve and Bucky but she acted as if someone stole her life as if she died. After hearing Peggy yelling at (y/n) to " get the bloody hell up" and "move on they aren't coming back for you or for me or for anyone else for that matter" after all that Howard came clean and told her about the real relationship between Steve, (y/n), and Bucky. Peggy stopped yelling, her visits became less frequent, she eventually stopped coming altogether. Howard's visits as well become less frequent he began to swallow himself in booze, Peggy, and research. No time for (y/n). But still, Jarvis and Christina stayed by her side, even after Christina left Stark's payroll she still visited(y/n) regularly. And Jarvis always came for dinner.

1946 a year to the day of when the war ended... and Steve died. (y/n) chested pained as she sat up "good morning" Jarvis greeted as he walked into her room and opened her blinds "beautiful day isn't it" she didn't answer but Jarvis didn't expect her to." your breakfast is ready you better come down before it gets cold" and he left.
(y/n) didn't say anything she didn't move. It felt cold. She was cold. She wasn't cold cold but cold. Like the cold she felt the day... the day they died.

Something bad was going to happen to her and she was okay with that. With a small smile on her face (y/n) climbed out of bed and went to her closet picking out her best white dress. Something bad was going to happen to her today and she was going to look her best. Strange as it was (y/n) hoped she died today and that she join Steve and Bucky on the other side. She was looking forward to the bad things heading her way today.

"what's the special occasion," Jarvis asked when he looked over his newspaper to see (y/n) in a nice white sundress, he didn't make a big deal out of it afraid she might change. "no reason. I think I might go for a walk today"

"well, in that case, I'll go with you just let me-"

"no Jarvis you have work to do with Howdy. I'll walk alone I'll be fine. I can take care of myself. You just tell Howdy and Peggy I said hi"

with a playful salute, Jarvis said "will do ma'am" with a quick kiss on the forehead Jarvis was gone. Off to save Howard no doubt.

Nothing happened in the park much to (y/n) disappointment, it looked so beautiful she would have been okay with dying in such beauty. Nothing happened at the dinner where she had lunch a few nasty comment from a few men but nothing else. And nothing happened on the walk home either. She wasn't dying today so why this strange feeling.

(y/n) sighed as she stood in front of her and Howard's apartment. Strange. She's probably the only person in the world who would be upset about not dying. Maybe she'd just have to do it herself. Maybe a gun or knife surely Stark had some pills something to put her down. Maybe she'd do the old fashion hanging or slitting of the wrist.

(y/n) hadn't even taken a step when she felt a sharp pain in the back of her neck she caught a glimpse of Jarvis and Howard running down the street before everything went black. She felt more alone than before. She wasn't just empty Now she was in the void.

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"STOP" Howard screamed at the car as it drove passed him Peggy pulled out her gun and began to fire at it. "(y/n) is in there" Peggy fired until she was out of bullets. Howard ran to her and said out of breath he tried to speak "we... need... get her"

"get in" Jarvis pulled up in a car and the hopped in following the car. They ended up leading a car chase through and out of New York before crashing. "NO" Howard screamed watching the car get away with (y/n) "no" he whispered.

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A week later a woman's body washed up on the beach no fingertips for fingerprints no face to recognize woman looked tortured and torn. The only recognizable thing about her was her dress.

"That's her white dress" Jarvis cried " her best white dress".