PROLOGUE
Faith
Faith is complete trust or confidence in someone or something.
Us as girls think we can find faith in someone. We believe we will find the right guy. We have the faith in ourselves that we can choose the right one. But when we think we have found faith, we just get heartbroken in the end. These guys make us feel so loved, until they break us. We feel like dirt in the end. We feel betrayed and lonely. All we do is stay in our room and cry, cry, cry. No one can cheer us up. We feel worthless. We lose faith in ourselves. Us girls have to gain our faith once again, for someone new. We try to find a perfect guy, like Augustus Waters, or Tobias Eaton, or maybe even Noah Calhoun. We should chase reality, but we don't. Most girls have gotten hurt. I was one of them.
Them as guys. They make you feel loved. They treat you with little gifts until they find someone new and break it to you in the hardest way. Guys tell you they love you, when they really don't. They make you believe that your relationship will be so different from the rest and that they will treat you right. Guys give you heartbreak and betrayal and every worst feeling in the world. We feel stupid once we realize we made the wrong choice.
Shawn Mendes. He caused me all of this. All of this pain and loneliness was because of him. He made me feel worthless. He promised me so much. He told me this relationship was real. He told me he loved me. He hurt me, so much. He left one day, saying he was going to visit family in Canada. Boy, was that false. He cheated on me, he didn't even go to Canada! Because of him, I sit here, still hurt.
Lia Jenson. That's me. I was once again crushed. I lost my faith in everyone. I can't just trust anyone. I can't even trust myself. I was left and cheated on. I just say in my room, 24/7, doing nothing. Here I am, depressed and scared, all because of Shawn.
