The Answers We Need: Reylo Fanfic

The Answers We Need

Screams came from everywhere, deafening and cruel. No amount of covering her ears and squeezing her eyes shut did anything to help, the voices only became louder.

Finally, Rey sat up breathing heavily and drenched with sweat. It was only a nightmare,  she thought to herself for the umpteenth time. She took in her surroundings, relieved to see that she was back in her room on the old Resistance base. It wasn't much to look at, but it gave her comfort in times of unrest such as these. Not much else did anymore. Not since her last bit of hope had slipped through her fingers.

Reluctantly, she pushed herself off of her bed and tried to slow her breathing, walking over to the door of her tiny quarters. 

Another one? That must've been the third just this week.

The girl rolled her eyes and ignored the push of the man in her mind, though she would've much rather made a snide comment. It didn't matter, anyway. She knew he'd sense the annoyance through their bond no matter what she did. 

Rey couldn't go for long without feeling Ben's- no, Kylo's persistent thoughts prodding her left and right, but it wasn't her fault that she shut him out. He was the one that had made the wrong choice. 

To say that she was strong enough to not want to pull him back even after his decision would've been ridiculous. Even she had had a moment of vulnerability that day before she shut the door on him, figuratively and literally. She'd wanted more than anything to be with him, to say "screw it all" to the universe and choose the easy way out. 

But she recognized that the one she needed was Ben Solo, not Kylo Ren, and that's all he was now. His thirst for power had drowned out his pull to the light, and she couldn't follow him down that path. Not when she knew it was wrong. Still . . . how she missed him.

Promptly, she snapped out of her sulking and freshened up before the new day. It was fairly early to be up, but she'd rather not have to deal with any more nightmares than she had to, so she set to work on the one good thing that had come out of scavenging for parts on Jakku all those long years: repairing ships.

A few hours in, Rey felt a tap on her shoulder. She looked up, happy to see Finn looking down at her. "You lost in space or what?" He teased.

Rey chuckled. "Just concentrated."

"Well, Rose and I were gonna check on a corrupted transmission and wanted to know if you would like to come along. We could really use your help," Finn said with a smile.

The girl paused as if she were thinking for a moment, even though she'd already determined her answer before he'd finished his sentence. "I'll have to pass on that. You two go have fun." Rey watched guiltily as Finn comprehended her answer, noticing the small indications of disappointment on his face although he attempted to conceal them and laugh it off. He nodded and swiftly rushed over to Rose who had been waiting for him a few feet away. Though Rey couldn't hear them, she knew that Finn was dejectedly explaining to his companion that, once again, the "War Hero" that the mechanic idolized would not be joining them.

Rey knew Rose was a kind girl. It wasn't that she harbored any jealousy towards her for being so close to Finn. Rather, it was the fact that Rey knew as soon as she had walked into the stern of the Millenium Falcon after saving those remaining of the Resistance that this was not the place she was meant to be. Everyone's lives had moved on without her. She knew it wasn't anything personal, it was just the way things worked.

Haven't you had enough isolation to last you a lifetime? What is holding you back from going with them? B- Kylo's voice pushed through her mind, though she was sure he already knew.