Tony's panic attacks

Tony's panic attack

Tony Stark. a man that always acted relaxed. he was good at acting, but today his friends had all left the tower, simply leaving Tony with his boyfriend, whom was out cold in their bed. so that left Tony in the shower, trying to relax. his reactor had gone out a week ago and Bruce had built a new one and replaced it for him. Tony hadn't been able to sleep or relax since then. for some reason the nightmares and flash backs from his kidnap, they were back. Tony hadn't slept all week, barley eaten, and strayed from the others, more so then normal. everyone had noticed something was wrong, but Tony convinced him it was some big project he was working on in his lab, his special lab that no one, not even Bruce was allowed in. he generally worked on things for the team in that room, but lately he'd been spending a lot of time in it, blasting Black Sabbath so no one would hear his panic attacks. he clenched his eye's shut, resting his head on the shower wall. he was concentrating so hard on pushing the horrifying memories away, he never even notice Bruce come into the bathroom. Bruce studied him a moment.

"Tony?" Bruce ask. Tony didn't even seem to notice him. Bruce didn't need Jarvis to tell him Tony's heart rate was elevated. he could see Tony's chest heaving. Tony gasp for breath.

"J, Bl-Black Sabbath, now!" Tony shouted. suddenly the bathroom was blasting with Black Sabbath. Bruce's eyebrows shot up. his chest heaved harder and Tony sank to the bottom of his shower, sitting on the tile floor in a ball. Bruce moved quickly as Tony rocked back an forth on the floor, a strangled scream escaping his throat. he knelt by Tony.

"Tony?" Bruce ask, reaching forward. he put a hand on Tony's shoulder and was shocked when Tony screamed and jerked away. he jerked his head up, tears dripping down his face. he was gasping for breath, on hand clutching his chest, over his heart. Bruce knew a panic attack when he saw one. he'd had quiet a few himself. Bruce sat quickly and pulled Tony to him, pulling him back into the shower water. Tony cried out at the water and tried to push away, but Brue held him tightly. "Jarvis! shower off now!" Bruce shouted. the water was off in an instant, not that it mattered, Bruce and his clothes were soaked. Tony grasp onto Bruce's shirt burying his face in Bruce's chest. even over the music Bruce could hear him gasping for breath, before screaming into his chest. Tony clung to him, gasping for breath, then occasionally screaming. if went on for about ten minutes before Tony slumped down against him, taking shaky breaths and letting out soft whimpers. Bruce pulled him closer, holding him tightly, running his fingers through Tony's hair gently. he didn't say anything, neither did. the music was too loud for either to be heard. Bruce reached out of the shower and grabbed Tony's towel quickly, wrapping it around the man. Tony offered no resistance, he didn't even try to help, he just sat their, slumped against Bruce's chest staring off at a wall. Bruce didn't need Tony to tell him, he knew what had happened to Tony, he'd heard the horror stories. he'd seen the panic attacks and nightmares. "Jarvis, music!" Bruce shouted. the music shut off. "deactivate yourself on this floor." Bruce said.

"yes Dr.Banner." Jarvis said and shut off.

"okay Tony come on. let's get you to the bedroom and get you dressed." Bruce said. Tony gave a week nod, but his body was still feeling weak. Bruce pulled Tony's arm over his shoulders and pulled him up. Tony's giant towel covered his whole body, but Bruce knew the shaking in his knee's wasn't the cold. Bruce held Tony tightly, helping him to the bedroom, then helped him get dressed. once Tony was dressed, Bruce changed and laid beside him. Bruce pulled him closer. Tony whimpered softly, burying his face in Bruce's chest. his fingers trembled as he fisted his hands into Bruce's clothes. "what happened Tony?" Bruce ask softly. for once Tony couldn't find his voice, couldn't speak. instead, he used one of his hands to grab on of Bruce's and put it over his reactor. though Bruce's hand had simply grazed the reactor, he could feel Tony's heart thundering in his chest. Bruce ran his thumb across the reactor gently, Tony flinched slightly, closing his eye's tightly. Bruce wrapped his arm back around Tony. "okay. okay. when did they start back up Tony?" Bruce ask. Tony's fist tapped against his chest, three times. "three? what days? weeks?" Bruce ask. Tony nodded. "weeks? three weeks? Tony is that why you've been acting so strange?" Bruce ask softly. Tony nodded again. "why didn't you tell me?" Bruce ask.