mental.

the beginning of the end.

~Friday Night~
I stared at Tyler's patterned ceiling as she tossed dresses onto her bed, "Dude, I have nothing to wear." she huffed as she sprawled out next to me.

"It's just some stupid middle school dance, why do we even have to go?" I said. "Oh it'll be fun. You're just upset that Davis didn't ask you to go with him." she said making kissing sounds. "I just don't get it, like how do you have a school dance and not ask your girlfriend to it. He acts like we aren't even dating." I said.

"It's just how boys are, we just have to accept it." she said. "Now come on Asp, help me find something to wear."

I helped her pick out a flower printed dress and I borrowed one of Mack's nice shirts and just wore my leggings and boots. We got to the dance before it even started Davis was no where in sight, I just wanted to spend some time with him.

My other "friend" Jess showed up a couple minutes late to the dance and she didn't even say hi. She had just moved here and my friends and I kind of accepted her into our circle. I had a weird feeling about her since I met her, she just seemed petty.

I ignored it because if I said I didn't like her, I would loose most of my friends. It was halfway through the dance and a slow song started playing, "Can I talk to you?" Davis asked.

"Sure" I hesitantly responded. "Look, I think it would be better if we were just friends. I don't feel it anymore." he said. "Oh." I said keeping calm. "Cool." I walked off to go find Tyler and Mack. I found Mack first, "Davis just broke up with me." I whispered in her ear.

"Oh sweetie." she said, "I'm so sorry."

"I'm okay," I said faking a smile and feeling broken. "I'll be right back." She nodded and kept dancing, as I was walking to the bathroom I saw Davis getting Jess's numbered and he was all over her.

I looked over myself in the bathroom body length mirror. What's wrong with me? Why can't I keep any guy? Why do they always find someone better than me?

I'm no Jess she's beautiful, skinny, popular, perfect. I'm just me, I'm never good enough. I felt a tear slip down my cheek, as someone was coming in. I went into one of the stalls, "Ugh my hair looks so good tonight I love it." said a girl. Of course it's Jess, "Ky, can you believe I just took Aspen's boyfriend?" She said, "It wasn't even hard, I just told him to leave her for something better and he did."

She laughed, "Okay I should probably get back to Davis." I opened the stall, " Oh hey, its someone I used to think was my friend." I said and let out a small laugh as I washed my hands and pushed past her. The look on her face was priceless.

I went to Tyler and said, "Can we leave?" she nodded and pulled out her phone to call her mom.

We left the dance early and got back to Tyler's after an exhausting night. I was really upset about the whole thing. We watched some movies and I fell asleep.

My mom picked me up pretty early the next morning, and I got home around eight.

I was laying on my bed staring at whatever was on the TV when my mom walked in and sat down next to me. "Hey, shugie." she said, "Wanna talk about it?"

I shook my head no, still looking at the TV. "Give me your phone" she said, I looked up at her.

"It'll be better if those bitches can't reach you." she said putting her hand out.

"Okay." I said placing my phone in her palm. "Haylee wants to you to stay with her for the rest of the weekend, only if you want to though." she said.

"That would be nice." I said, "I needed to get away."

She nodded, "Well hurry, she's on her way."

"Okay." I said getting off the bed she left the room so I could change and get packed. I threw a bunch of clothes into a bag and my charger. I took off my clothes from last night and cleaned up. I looked at my body in the mirror picking out all of my flaws. I put on a tee shirt with the rolling stones on it, and put on my black leggings.

I sat on the couch waiting for Haylee to get here, I stared at my feet as she knocked.

~Sunday~

Haylee dropped me off at home and I went inside, my mom handed me my phone. "Feeling better?" she asked. "Yeah, I am actually." I responded smiling.

I clicked on my phone. I had a ton of DM's, but one in particular stood out to me. It was from Oli, Davis's bestfriend, from last night. I clicked on it.

oliv3er:
hey how're you?
2:34 am
oliv3er:
Aspen?
3:43 am

It read. He probably didn't know yet.

official.aspen:
sorry, just got this. although you probably don't wanna talk anymore...
3:07 pm

I hit send and he replied in minutes.

oliv3er:
no! of course i do. what Davis did was messed up. i'm really sorry Asp.
3:09 pm
               
                                                   official.aspen:
                               you really don't have too.
                                                              3:10 pm

oliv3er:
no i want to, you're really awesome.
Jess is no where near as good as you.
3:12 pm
        
                                                   official.aspen:
        thxs, just wish davis felt the same.. :/
                                                              3:15 pm

oliv3er:
he's a jerk. don't worry about him.
3:16 pm
      
                                                   official.aspen:
    yeah. well. it was kind of embarrassing..
                                                              3:18 pm

oliv3er:
do you have skype?
3:19 pm
                                          
                                                   official.aspen:
                                     yeah, i think so, why?
                                                            3:20 pm
oliv3er:
i know we don't really know
each other that well, but, would
you want to skype?🤷‍♂️
3:21 pm

                                                   official.aspen:
                                                           sure😋😊
                                                             3:23 pm

That my friends, was the beginning of the end.