that's it I've had enough // yesung

🔥introduction🔥

(Im sorry if this book makes you sad/ upset. I just thought of an idea for this book and I wanted to write it. Not everything in this book is real. You can tell the things that are real and you can tell the things that are fake. Sorry if my spelling is a bit off aswell)

"Yesung-hyung!" I heard Henry shout. I rolled my eyes and slowly gave him a death glare. "We need to get this finished by tonight yesung-ah!" Another voice said. I looked over to the sound. And it was the leader hyung 'Leeteuk' I wanted to say somthing but all I did was nod. No one knows how I feel. Heechul has depression I know he does. So does some other members but.....mine's the worse. I barely get any sleep. I rarely eat. I can't take the stress. Why did I become an idol in the first place. I got up, bowed and apologized "I'm sorry hyung. Things have been on my mind lately." I look down and bite my lip. "That's fine yesung-ah but try and concentrate" he says holding my shoulder comforting me. "I'll try." I walk over to the computer on the side-table and press play. Yes we're practing for our new song "blacksuit". I feel envious for Heechul. Eversince he was in that accident and hurt his leg. He's been coming in at the end of the songs. I don't wanna be a vocalist anymore. I don't wanna be an idol anymore. When I pressed play I ran back to my position and slowly started to dance but all I heard was the voices in my head. 'You're not wanted' 'you're not loved' 'die already' I even see them though in our comments on some of our music videos. As I feel the song coming to an end. I feel my body getting heavier and heavier. Until I fell to the floor. Everything went blank. There was no pain. No worries. No nothing. I couldn't feel anything. Can I stay like this for like ever. "Hyung!" I hear in the distance. "Yesung-ah!" I hear another voice. I felt arms all over my body shaking me. Leave me alone. I want to stay like this. I saw a bright light and lots of noise around me. Alarms going off around me. "Sir stay calm we're nearly there" my eyes flickered open as I tried to sit up. So I saw was bright lights so I tried to cover my eyes but I was being held down. I turned my head to the side. Door after door after door. I lifted my head up slightly to see who was with me. I saw shindong-ssi, leeteuk hyung, eunhyuk-ie amd heechul-ie hyung. "Leeteuk hyung" I groaned arching my back. "Where are we" I added. "I-i-i-I'm scared. I wanna go home!" I say quite loudly tears forming in my eyes. I close my eyes whimpering to myself. Until I felt and hand near my nose and my eye. I could tell it was Heechul-ie's hand. It was very skinny and bony. I felt his presence next to me as we slowed down. "Yesung-ie.......stay calm ok. We're gonna help you." "YAH heechul-ssi don't say that your gonna worry him" Leeteuk said scolding him. I chuckled slightly. At least I have some emotion...wait.....did I faint......why.... We came to a halt. The arms that were holding me down loosened their grip so I could sit up. "Eunhyuk-ie...where are we" I ask him looking down tearing up again."Hyung can i tell him?" I hear him say (*Leeteuk nods*) "hyung we're at a mental hospital....."