Words From Heart ♥

I feel (M)

I wanna cry.. i wanna cry out loud..so loud that the whole world hears it. But i can't..

I want to let out all the pain, all the chaos .. i want to go far away.. from everything.. from everyone..

I want to run away.. from things happening.. run far away from this world.. i don't feel like i could take this ...

I feel like i've lost it. I don't want anything.. i just want peace .. i can't hold back anymore... All strengths , barriers and facade that was holdig me up seems to tumble down ....

It feels like i am reliving each and every pain , hurt again...and to count them isn't something i could do..

I can't have anymore attachments.. never ever.. coz everyone leaves in end ..

I don't know what to feel anymore... It feels like i've been crashing down under this humongous box and i've used up my all enery to stop it from crushing me down till now.. but now it seems like i don't have any energy left..

I want to go away where i don't have to make any human interaction , or do anything .. somewhere where i could just lie or sit as it is for as many days , weeks , months... I feel tired ... Tired of putting on a mask.. tired of acting nice.. tired of doing efforts.. tired of making people believe everything's fine.. Tired of this world .. of everything..

I ... I feel... I .. I don't know anymore...
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