Annyeong

hold on.

(please play the song on the multimedia while reading this)

YOONGI shouted in pain as blood started to drip out of his nose. He sat up on the hospital bed and tried to wipe the blood that was continuously dripping out of his nose.

Five seconds have passed and the blood was still there, and it did not stop from dripping. Yoongi dazed off at the distance as he started to question his existence.

As to why he's still living up until now.

How long do I have to endure this?  Yoongi thought at the back of his mind.

"Why can't I just fucking die?" Yoongi whispered as he looked at the stains of blood on his hands, completely covered in crimson red.

"Damn it, I don't deserve to live anymore!" He shouted with a faint of sadness on his voice. A nurse heard him and she knocked on his door before opening it.

"Sir, you need to calm down and get some rest, there's a blood donor that's willing to–"

"I told you that I won't be accepting any blood donors, right?! Why are you all so stubborn? Why don't you just leave me alone and let me die?!" Yoongi protested as he removed the IV that was inject led off of his skin, causing more blood to drip.

It's been like this everyday, the nurses will inject blood into Yoongi because of his blood disorder, Hemophilia. Currently the nurses are trying to support him with stable blood count, but the factors of the blood clot on his plasma is just making his condition worse.

"Sir, please don't remove the IV! Removing that will only cause you to lose more blood!" The nurse pleaded as she made her way to Yoongi, but Yoongi threw the IV off before the nurse could even attach it.

Yoongi has become weaker as the days passed by. Even if there are blood donors donating, still, it wasn't enough to make his condition stable.

The nurse called for the doctor because Yoongi's blood count is decreasing once again. She picked the IV on the floor and the doctor soon arrived.

"You really are stubborn, aren't you?" The doctor asked while shaking his head in dismay as soon as he saw blood all over Yoongi's room again.

"Do you really intend to save me through all those blood donations? I already told you to stop accepting blood donations because it's all useless, I'm gonna die anyway so why don't you just let me be on my own?" Yoongi uttered under his breath while glaring at the doctor.

"You want to be on your own? Are you hearing yourself, Yoongi? You really want to die just because of this? You might be forgetting that we're brothers and I'll do everything I could just to save you!" Yoongi's brother, Namjoon, said to him.

"Then why didn't you save our parents? You only showed up yourself as soon as they died and now you're here saying you're 'trying' your best to save me, but why didn't you do this to them while they were still alive?" Yoongi clenched his fists as he gritted his teeth.

"Yoongi, I never–"

"You never what? You never wanted that to happen? Well, fuck off, Namjoon. If you never wanted that to happen then you should've showed up yourself in the first place." Yoongi said before he got up from the hospital bed. He angrily opened the door and was about to leave when he suddenly stopped and faced Namjoon.

"Oh, your work here is done by the way. Thanks for the blood." He then stormed out of the room before Namjoon could even utter a word.

-. -. -

"Screw this life!" Yoongi shouted in anger as he kicked the pebble in front of him.

He went to the seashore because he wanted to be free from his thoughts. He thought he could unwind, but his past kept on haunting him. Daunting him every second of his life, he kept on wondering why his parents had to die.. when he did everything he can just to take care of them.