I woke up crying because i had just noticed how much my family is falling apart. Yes, I just woke up crying at 4:39 in the morning.
I never knew much about my father really, all I can say is that I have one thing that comes to my mind when someone says 'dad' or 'Jim' this song I listed below. It explains everything about my dad, besides the fact that my father doesnt even tell me he loves me. He will snap me pictures of his dog saying that they are lazy. But it's my dad's words agaisnt the law, im only 11. If my dad says I am going to live with him I have to, I cant say anything against that until I am 13 years old. Just listen to the song and see what you think. My dad doesn't tell me he loves me. He doesnt pick me up off the ground when I fall. I know that some kids also suffer with this kind of relationship with their dad too, but I never really had a childhood with my dad. I don't think I ever will.
I cried so much writing this chapter cause as I said I only just noticed how much my family is falling apart. I ask my mom all the time 'did dad really leave just cause he cheated on you. ' Did dad leave because of a different reason?' I ask her all these questions and I dont get answers. I just hope my life will get better someday, I dont picture myself happy in a home with a husband or even boyfriend when I'm older. I picture myself still living here in my apartment with my mom, i will admit there is nothing wrong living with your own mother. Its just the fact of me living in a tiny apartment while I see all my friends happy with their husbands or boyfriends and kids. Im sorry PanicAtTheWolf if I offended you with any part of this chapter. Just know that I hope you have a very happy amazing life and that I love having you as a best friend, as well for you too kayfameforlife.
